Thank you.

What are you going to do? I'm so sorry this is happening to you.

Have you been to the doctors hon?

I didn't go to the doctor, I couldn't come up with another excuse as to why I'd need to go since I went to see if I had any stds. I missed my period...which they are usually pretty regular. So I took a home pregnancy test since I looked online and it said you can take one almost a week after your missed period or 19 days after the unprotected sex and it said positive...I have no idea what I'm going to do. The guilt would eat me alive if I got an abortion even though I've always thought if someone was raped that was an exception...I just feel like it would be so selfish of me. But I can't live nine months and have to tell everyone what happened.....and if it had the same face or eyes of my rapist...I'm 18 I shouldn't be having to deal with this. I don't know what to do. I didn't even think to get the morning after pill after it happened I'm so stupid.

Sounds, no you shouldn't have to live with this for nine months and have to tell everyone. You have to think of yourself. You're not responsible for this. Who do you have to give the excuse to? Tell them you have menstrual pain or something, but tell the doctor the truth.

It wouldn't be selfish of you. You don't deserve to carry a child that you don't want and that HAS THE GENES OF A RAPIST for months. Get that thing out of your body. Please!

Why can't you talk about it? What's the absolute worst thing that could happen if you told, in confidence, a doctor or a friend or safe family member?

No secrets. No lies. No shame. The longer you hold it in and keep it to yourself and isolate yourself, the worse you'll feel, and the more you'll take it out on yourself. Guaranteed.

You are not "ruined". Your life is not OVER. You wake up each morning with a new day and new decisions. You can live in this world and you can live in this society.

And you CAN tell the police and put that pile of human excrement in prison.

soundsofsilence wrote:I didn't go to the doctor, I couldn't come up with another excuse as to why I'd need to go since I went to see if I had any stds. I missed my period...which they are usually pretty regular. So I took a home pregnancy test since I looked online and it said you can take one almost a week after your missed period or 19 days after the unprotected sex and it said positive...I have no idea what I'm going to do. The guilt would eat me alive if I got an abortion even though I've always thought if someone was raped that was an exception...I just feel like it would be so selfish of me. But I can't live nine months and have to tell everyone what happened.....and if it had the same face or eyes of my rapist...I'm 18 I shouldn't be having to deal with this. I don't know what to do. I didn't even think to get the morning after pill after it happened I'm so stupid.

You should post on HW hon, there are people there pregnant by rape and have kept their child, I think that by talking to them the could help you with this situation.... Also here is a great website I think may help you... you also need to go to your GP/family doc hon... I know you don't want too.

I know people who've had their babies & even though it was a reminder, and it was hard they don't regret their decision to igive birth and raise their child, don't feel that you are forced to do something you don't want too. Like I said I personally know people who've kept their babies and they are happy they did. Here are some sites that may help you with this...

http://www.pandys.org/pregnantbyrape/
http://www.pandys.org/rapeandpregnancy.html
http://www.aswaterspassingby.org/pregnancy.html

These two site pandys and aswatersapassingby I know the owners of this site.

You are not alone with this hun...