attracted to danger?

You need to talk to someone about doing this constantly hon, it's not safe for you... and it can be changed, your way of thinking... but it takes time.

i've phoned the guy and told him that i'm never going to come to his house again or him to mine. well, i said my parents said i can't because they don't trust him. i couldn't bring myself to say that i don't! but i've made sure that i won't ever see him alone again. so that's kind of a step forward??

I hope that you stay away hon... it's really important that you do.

scarred_cutter wrote:i was running down the road today and this guy stopped me and was asking me for my number. i didn't give it to him, but he said we should go running some time, and that he was 22. then he said something that freaked me out a little.

i was looking at his eyes, and he wasn't looking at me, he didn't look at me once, he was staring past me and he said, "hey, i need some young blood in me" (because i'm younger than him)

at this point, i gave him a fake number and left.

but something in me wanted to give him my real one. something in me was hoping that he would do something horrible to me.

i've found this lately and it disturbs me that i want someone to hurt me badly.

what should i do?

i find myself hanging around guys, just waiting for them to do something

were u abused as a kid? maybe its what you're used to. when I was a teen, I would ALWAYS do stupid stuff and put myself in all sorts of dangerous situations..though nothing would happen..i'd always figure a way out..frankly..I never thought I'd hit 20 yo

maybe u wanna you want to prove to yourself you're strong and can handle yourself..I cant even count the times I was alone in south central around and after midnite(i'm a white grrl)...nothing ever happened


weirdest thing for me...i was raped by a classmate who seemed like conservative, well mannered etc etc...and in seattle at that. whoever associates danger with seattle ?


mind blowing, weird, freaky, trippy etc etc IMO

hi scutterd you again... I read many post from you. Now this one.. Yo said you want to get hurt?? but in your other post you are asking some advise? hmmm

Try to read this if you have short free time okey??
http://www.thankgodforebooks.com/raped.html

God Bless

Scarred, I know exaclty what you mean. I was a exotic dancer for almost ten years and when i was leaving my job i would leave with total strangers sometime hoping they would try and do something to me. I don't know why i did this, maybe it's because i was so helpless during my attacks that i thought if these guys tried something i could protect myself and it would erase the things that actually had happened to me. I think i also felt that it would be better for me if my attackers were all strangers.

Hey, Before I say anything I want you to know that I am not judging you...

I was raped a few months ago. I didnt know them, but I was soo drunk and I made a stupid mistake of getting in a strangers car when I was paralytic drunk, he said we were going to a house party and because I didnt want to go home I went with them. I did not think anything of it because I always hang around with guys and I guess you never think something like this would happen to you... That experience showed me how truly cold human beings can be, I cried, screamed and begged them the whole way through but they treated me like a toy... they hurt every aspect of me; physical, psychological and spiritually, and it feels like they have taken the most precious thing that anyone has, My life.

Rape is one of the worst, most painful, degrading, traumatic and violating things anyone could ever go through, personally I think its in the same league as murder because it actually takes your life and your will to enjoy it. For you to say you want something this vile to happen to you? I think thats kind of psychotic, or you may just be a masochist; whatever the situation I do beg that you change your frame of mind. If you want something so bad to happen to you, then it will and once that happens there is no going back. There are women out there who would do anything to take back such things, I would give anything to have my old life back... but I have this sick burden to take with me to the grave.
Please be careful, and if you need to seek help.