Has anyone else here attempted suicide after the assault?

I read the Physicians Desk Reference..and took about 4 times what the PDR said was lethal, was in the hosptial for 11 days. I could not be discharged til the stuff was out of my system.
They were gonna lock me up for a few days because I posed a danger to myself I guess, but like I said in another post, my bf is a lawyer..so he was able to convince them not to
When I got home from the hospital, I almost instantly started thinking about taking myself out. I live on a 13th floor and was contemplating taking a flying leap for a few days. Despite the fact it sounds painful, if you think about it, just about any way of dying is painful..and with jumping, the pain would only be for a few seconds

I'm really not a total nut. At least I dont think I am. Maybe I'm wrong. I dont know

13th floor is high, you'd probably suffocate before you hit the ground(just for the record).

Anyway, yes, I've thought about it sometimes, but I never tried it. Nowadays I'm glad I never tried, I enjoy my life and I enjoy living, despite all that happened to me.

You may think that it's the end for you, but you can't let yourself go when something bad happens, you have to fight! You deserve to live, and you deserve to be happy, and never let anyone tell you otherwise!

You are your worst enemy if you think you're better off dead, focus on the good things in your life, there's always something better, and if it didn't come yet, it will sure do, sooner or later!

PS: you're not a nut!!

i've tried a couple of times but, as i'm sure you found out, stomach pumps aren't cool

I consider, but I could never do it. I can't swallow pills, and I have a phobia of Blood.

But, regardless of my phobia, sometimes I get the feeling I should.

I think suicide after sexual assault is pretty common Catharine. A lot of men in my Men's Group have tried, usually around the time of the assault. The youngest being around 8 years old at the time, the oldest attempting suicide 40 years later after the assault.

yes when i was 17 after i was raped ..i tried to take my life ..and i am glad i didnt succeed..my life is not the best..but life is better...don't let him take that from you..life..and you are not a nut your had something horrendous happen to you ..and you will get through it...even though it feels awful and it fells as if the world is closing in on you..You Do Deserve to go on..life has much to offer..your posting something here tells me that you want some help and that you know you deserve that and you do..please dont give up..you will get thru this!! much love

phoenix74 wrote:...your posting something here tells me that you want some help ..please dont give up..you will get thru this!! much love

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your welcome... im so glad your still here...thats awesome..i can understand the wanting to die..just because the pain is so overwhelming sometimes..and anger and fear and many other emotions you are going through but your still here..*effin high five ..i went to a rape crisis center afterwards..that helped alot..it took me a while to get to that point and want to talk about things..it is hard..but there are people out there who care and want to help..best wishes..go get what you need..

Sadly, the rape crisis center in Seattle is not very experienced..I had to edit Wikipedia about them LOL
I thank goddess when I went to the hospital to get checked out I had a boyfriend with me...the social worker thought I brought it on myself...maybe because I didnt have a bra..or even underwear on when I went to the hospital... and people wonder why so many dont report rapes.
Its really sad. My bf even said that I shouldnt have told them I was intoxicated...i shouldnt have to lie about a tragedy and didnt..but my character was still in question...despite the fact I was drunk and even got a cop out email from the rapist that we *discussed* it. How many things do u *discuss* when you're drunk?
He knew i didnt want to do it, drunk OR sober. He just saw an opportunity and went with it. My bf even wants to go after him in court and sue the **** out of him..but i dont want to go through it again. rape is not about power..its about lack of power. the ones who do it cant even hustle a woman into doing it..they have to force it on her...what saps!

oh..and the reason i didnt have a bra or undies on when i went to the hospital is because i didnt really care about properly getting dressed..just throw on as many of my threads on as fast as i could
luckily the nurses were nice and understanding ...social workers though..meh..i think they dont think too much for themselves..