PLEASE read this, I just really need someone to talk to.

Hey stuck, i've already PMed you but I thought i'd write here too.

I think you sohuld let him know, regardless how long you've been dating him for. You shouldn't keep it to yourself in terms of that. I think if it's meant to be then he will try to help you out with it, and help you heal.

I agree with what countrychickny has said, it might get worse if you hold it off too long, he may wonder why you did not tell him earlier.

For what it's worth, my girlfriend told me she was violently raped as a teenager by a man and that she was molested as a child by her brother after about a month of dating me. I have to admit, it was hard to absorb and even now that we're married I still see her as a survivor whenever the topic of rape or abuse comes up, and I wonder how those things affect her today. I avoid bringing it up since she seems to have coped very well, but I'm glad she told me so that I can understand when she's triggered by the way that our bodies are positioned sometimes, and it feels very good to know that she trusted me with that information about her past before we even got serious. Mind, we went to the same church and college and she'd known me before we started dating for about a year so she had plenty of time to assess me and had good reason to trust me. If you have any hope of your relationship developing into something more than bf and gf, telling him is a good and important risk to take.

Okay everyone, so I told him last night.

I went over to his room after rehearsal because I just had to talk to him about it. There were points where I didn't say anything, and neither did he, just because neither of us could think of anything to say. But I told him about what happened, not everything, just the important stuff. I told him I had been raped, and it was before we met, but I didn't tell him I'm in counseling or I'm sometimes suicidal. He took it all so well. He knew exactly what to say and what to do; I'm really glad I told him. So that went amazingly well

I'm glad it went well! It will be great if you'll have his support and understanding. You are brave for doing this.

That's great stuck, that's a major step.
you don't have to go into details with him about it, but it's good that he knows.

Hello Stuck,
I think that you should tell your boyfriend if he is a good guy he will be there for you. I think it will also be helpful for the relationship for him to know that something so heavy is weighing on you. Some guys can really surprise you.