Looking for feedback/discussion

This board is AMAZING! I can't believe all these stories. I originally came here as some sort of cathartic excercise- to say things how they really happened.

But the most cathartic thing has been reading everyone else's stories. ANd something Jasmin wrote about us not really wanting to grow up and be as strong as we know we are to take care of ourselves...I think that is true.

But what I wanted to ask is what everyone thinks is the best recourse for what has happened to many of us.

(This is awful to say, but somehow I think some of you will understand) after my *event*, I wanted someone to defile the guy who had defiled me,

and in the exact same way. BUT I didnt want to go to the police about it. It just doesnt make sense to my brain that the way I should deal with the harm that's been done to my sense of self respect and self confidence is by putting it all out there in the public eye- and

and this is just the truth,

be judged by strangers.

Because in the end, it is what it is. What is the most hurtful FOR ME, is not so much that he did it, but the moment I stopped fighting him off.

Thoughts?

Hey, thebot! I hope you are well. It's ok to want the guy who hurt you to be hurt as well and it's normal to be afraid that others will judge you. It's not your fault you didn't fight him all the way. I think it was just a way to stay safe. I'm glad that reading others' experiences has helped you.

Thebot,

Jasmin and A'ine are right. You did not give consent and what was done to you wasn't right.

Learning to forgive ourselves is often the hardest part of healing.

Best,

N.