When i was 14 i was admitted to a juvenile psych ward for suicidal thoughts. I was there for 14 days. I alternated between being raped by a female nurse and being locked in the so called quiet room which was essentially a padded sensory deprivation room when i tried to tell someone.
For two years after this i tried to tell people. I got so used to being called a liar i started telling lies about how many friends i had and how many girls id been with.
But the truth is my only experience was with a 40 odd year old bleach blonde nurse who kept me restrained to the psych bed.
I am now 26 diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic BPD ADHD and DID.
I also suffer severe confidence issues as my own family believes what the doc at the psych ward told them. That i have a 'victim identify disorder'.
They think my last 11 attempts at suicide are cries for attention even though the last one technically did kill me. (*mod edit* I was saved by a fisherman who was below the bridge casting his line)
Could my rape have caused these other diagnoses or have i been misdiagnosed?
Please refrain from the mrn cant be raped stuff. My last therapist said that. Thus the bridge ordeal.