Not sure what to do next.

This is my first time visiting this site. I'll post my story, and you guys can tell me what you think I should do.

Last summer I was taking a greyhound between provinces, alone. It was only a week or so after my 15th birthday at the time, and I befriended the guy sitting next to me on the long trip home. We grabbed a bite to eat between bus swaps, and struck up a conversation. (I should add he was 20+ yrs old). Anyways, when night fell, I tried to get some sleep, and my hand brushed against his. He took that as an invitation, and made me do some things I really didnt want to do. Basically, he sexually assaulted me, and made me completely disgusted with myself. Anyways, I didnt tell anyone because I didnt want to tell my boyfriend what happened, or my parents or anything. Six months later, and I'm still having troubles sleeping (nightmares, flashbacks) and eating (I've started restricting and all that lovely stuff.)

I've opened up a bit about the whole experience, but still havent told my parents or anything. I'm not exactly sure how to carry that kind of conversation with them, to tell you the truth. I just can't seem to get it off my mind though. I feel stupid, like it was my fault. The few times I can seem to rethink that, I blame the drugs he was on at the time. I dunno. I'm kind of lost right now, and just need someone's views. Please help?

Yes you were sexually abused, assaulted, and if he knew your age, a child molester even if he did not.

First off you have to find support. If you can confide in your parents and they will support you, please tell them and they
can help you.

You may feel ashamed, But don't.
You did nothing wrong.
I am sorry that there are so many creeps like that.

Tell someone, it is hard enough dealing with it, not saying anything, keeping it all inside is can be so painful.

I hope you take care.

xoxoxox

I've already told my boyfriend, and a close friend. I can't seem to tell my parents though. I guess I'm scared about what they'll say.
I'm embarassed i didn't prevent it, and frustrated i didnt talk about it until recently. It feels like I let it go for too long to matter.
I know I should see a psychologist or something, but that would mean more people finding out.


Is there really that much you can do after half a year?

How dose one "basicly" make you do thing's. Sitting next to each other on a public greyhound bus.

It shouldnt of happened either way but considering the situation you have to take some responsibility. You arent a child and he didnt have a knife to your throat. He didnt abuse you, you allowed something then regretted it. I'd assume guilt would play a part in this having to do with your boyfriend. But you arent a wide eye'd little kid, but a young adult. In public and not under threat you'd be smart enough to say no loud enough to make your point.

"Is there really that much you can do after half a year?"

I'm sure you could contact someone and tell them your story. And i'm sure they'd look into it.

If these provinces you spoke of are canadian then our law's are different then other places. You are of the legal age of consent. And him being 20 and not such an astonishing leap older ontop of thing's like you were in a public place under no threat and made no attempt to stop it would have them skeptical. But i'd believe they'd look into it.

hotel_songs wrote:I've already told my boyfriend, and a close friend. I can't seem to tell my parents though. I guess I'm scared about what they'll say.
I'm embarassed i didn't prevent it, and frustrated i didnt talk about it until recently. It feels like I let it go for too long to matter.
I know I should see a psychologist or something, but that would mean more people finding out.


Is there really that much you can do after half a year?

Talking about it hon, is the best thing you can do.