New place in the inner world

So um can you just suddenly discover there's a place you've never heard of before? I've been really struggling trying to understsnd whats going on with me and the others. When theyre not around, I always pictured them having their own rooms in a corridor system kind of shaped like a H on its side. Cara is our alter who kind of controls stuff inside. And she has great knowledge of the inner workings. She also decides who fronts.

I was thinking about the inner world and some alters I havent seen in a long time. And i was like "well, I wonder where they are, I hope theyre ok." And I hear her say "Oh, they're fine. They're in the garden" um sorry??? The garden? What garden! She shows me an image of the two alters running around playing in this garden type place. I about broke down & started crying. I doubt myself all the time but thinking you know everything and realising you have no idea about this whole area & that these alters who id wondered about for years are just chilling there, it really scared me because I was so surprised & i dont really have an explanation for why i'd be surprised if i was faking it like i keep trying to convince myself I am. It also freaks me out because like if I didnt know about the gardens or where they had gone, what else don't I know? What else has Cara not told me? She must've had a reason not to, so what's the reason? Yeah, um so is this a thing that happens?

Hi

It’s strange I also remember a garden there was only me and my dog there we’d run around exploring it was fun cos no-one else knew about it..I assumed it ws a dream as we were wheelchair bound when I was last at the front …Jess tells me it’s an internal holodeck based on the original books/films of ‘The Secret Garden’ and ‘Tom’s Midnight Garden’ as they had seemed to be my favourites so the system had re-created it inside for me.

Maybe what each Insider see’s as ’the inside’ depends on their ability to imagine?

I fell asleep for years it seems and when I woke up it was all dark and I was on my own. I had been apparently moved into a stasis pod so the mental energy it took the brain to run the holodecks could be re-routed to the front when other hosts were struggling to find energy to get through the day.

Jess tells me all the holodecks are closed down for now as the body was experiencing a severe loss of energy so others were placed into stasis as they become exhausted from being host too.

I’m sure your system will always make sure you are all safe whether you/they are sleeping or active…I guess like me you were chosen to front at this time because you were the one with the ability to get them all through this time?

I’m just focusing on getting through each day and I guess when others are ready they will re-emerge eventually!

It may not be being hiden from you.

So I don't know how universal these terms are but this is what we experience

There are exomemories (memories made when fronting) and endomemories (memories made while living inside) as a rule our system cannot access endomemories while fronting solo. This is a safety mechanism to prevent us from talking about system stuff with outsiders. If we are coconut or blended (and therfore have an accountability buddy) we can access some of our endomemories but only if prompted. It helps for keeping timeliness straight because our inside space runs on several different speeds. The deeper in we go the slower time moves.
While inside we can access exomemories through specific area and it's like watching a 4d film.

What I'm trying to say is maybe no one told you about the garden because they assume you know about the garden because you were there last week and they don't realise that you can't remember facets of your internal life. Or maybe you didn't know because the innies wanted privacy sounds like at least one of the is young so perhaps the garden is removed from the conscious brain to گینه your head mates a space where the bodies emotions can't overwhelm them.

No knowing the entirety of your internal structure is common and defiantly a sign that you are not faking it.