Can I be able to overcome feelings of self-loathe?

I've been abused emotionally during my teenhood, from middle school to college, where I only have a year left to graduate. Since February, I've been on a progress of healing those emotional scars than the last few years, but there are some moments where I end up recollecting incidents of me enduring all that harm and torture inflicted by other people. Because of this, I have a hard time trusting people, becoming too dependent on them, obsessive, excessively worrying whether it was me who was the bad guy to them without my awareness. No matter how much I received reassurance from a couple of people that I questioned about my behaviour towards them, it doesn't change the fact that I still feel terrible about myself and my existence. Even if I've never done anything wrong, or committed crime, I'm not able to get rid of that self-guilt that's been ripping me apart for far too long.

I can feel myself standing up on my ground again, but one thing that keeps me from focusing on my life, is just my past. Sometimes I feel good, sometimes I feel bad. Is this some sort of trauma that I carry inside of me? Besides therapy, will I be able to 100% recover from this? I just want to hope that I can eventually move on from all the #######4 I went through.

Thank you if you took the time to read my post. If you can share your story, or provide an advice - all is appreciated! Thank you!!!