Little insight

Hello,

I am new here and just signed up today. I am just curious and dissociation. I have very few memories of
Childhood but what i do are clips of mainly thoughts of what i thought or a clip but no details. One memory i have always had and even told my kids about when they was little is anywhere from 4th-6th grade i told my teacher i thought my parents were drugging me at night. She ask why and i said i don’t remember anything after i leave school.. i know CPS was called because i truly didn’t remember anything she ask questions and I didn’t even know what i ate for super. Move alone in life i always have memory issues. I have always had bouts of depression or anxiety but never been on medication for anything i just seem to have a baha moment where i am over it. I do believe I was SA as a child because parts of my clips are memories of something but never the action that followed if this even makes sense. We grew up around it I’m in my 40’s and i think everyone was by someone in our family but they all remember I do not have no knowledge of it. About three years ago i had a big event happen in my life and my memory is became so much worse. I am not knowing names of people i have worked with forever. I have had weird things happen. I thought maybe i was hitting older age and maybe early altimzers but when i went to doctor all checked out even had a brain mri. I can’t remember regular words basic words, names, i stutter, and among other things. I have set an appointment with a T. Because my doctor seems to think it’s stress related. Any questions let me know i really just wondering