"rebuilding your bubble"

Hi all, dunno if I should post this on the avpd forum or the trauma forum this one but here goes...
To preface it I am not fishing for compliments but I am asking for advice or help.

So recently I've been feeling kinda bad about myself and I feel that my confidence has been knocked from offhand comments and bullying, like the bubble which I lived in that protects me from feelings of inferiority or low esteem has been popped, and I am kinda struggling to even find footing or grounding resources or anything of the like, or how to get back to a stable place of self esteem. I have seen two therapists before for this sort of thing and also social anxiety, which ig is comorbid with VN, as well as looking for a new therapist, and talking to two close freinds who understand. That vaugly helped and I had rebuilt some of my esteem but I still don't feel the same.

That mixed with a loss of self from emotional abuse which I (mostly) recovered from makes it basically impossible to find and footing in myself or what is going on around me just makes it harder to keep my own boat afloat if you get me. I think I have a tinge of c-ptsd now, or some form of disorder related to emotional abuse, so my shaky sense of self still feels a bit fragmented, and it's a total mess from an ex who completely f*cked me over, intentionally exploting my weakness. I am alright these days but still don't know where to turn or what to say. Idk.