by wifeofxcop » Fri Mar 17, 2006 9:21 pm
Hi keg, My story is that I married a great guy who was a police officer. Shortly after our marriage he transferred to personal crimes, then homicide. There were riots in our city and since his transfer 3 fellow police officers who he considered friends were killed. Since he was on homicide, he was put in the position of having to put one of his friends into a body bag, then made to direct traffic for this man's funeral a few days later.......That was seven years ago, I am still looking for the support that I need. My husband came by his demons honestly, and my heart breaks for what he has endured, but, I and our children, especially our oldest boy suffer also. There are countless days that we walk on eggshells, and tiptoe around his moods. I know now not to take it personally, but you can't go about life as usual with this kind of disorder. I will stand by my husband because we are married and I made a commitment, however, if I knew then what I know now, I'd have made a different life for myself. If you continue this relationship, you are asking for a lot of heartache, please don't be the martyr. You have one life, one chance. To be supportive is honorable and loving yes, but in my experience PTSD doesn't go away. God bless you and guide you in your decision, I know my response will anger some people, but sugarcoating the truth isn't my way.