Depression and Anger

This forum doesn't seem to be monitored much, so I'm not sure anyone's going to read this. Regardless, I am writing this anyway.

Lately, I've been feeling angry and depressed. I'm angry and depressed at the past, as well as what might happen in the future. Oftentimes, bad things that I think will happen in the future usually do happen. The present isn't very good either. I'm unemployed.

I'm trying to find reasons to be happy, but they are few and far between. I've been a survivor of abuse for most of my life. Psychological abuse, which is often worse than physical abuse.

I've made catastrophic mistakes in the past. I will probably be tortured the rest of my life by them.

Honestly, I'm not certain what I should do at this point. The future looks bleak, and I'm not even a pessimist.

Hello Kenneth. I'm sorry you are still struggling. I don't really know what more to say to you than the stuff I've said in the past but I just wanted to let you know that I'm sending you my support.

Kenneth wrote:Psychological abuse, which is often worse than physical abuse.

I think it's important to note that there is no "worse" type of abuse. All abuse is bad and effects the victims of it in really bad ways. I just felt it is important to note this because some survivors of physical abuse may have felt a bit invalidated at reading your comment, like their abuse wasn't important and they need to know that that is not the case. All abuse is a terrible thing and there is no degree of what is worse as the impact to each person is very individual.

Come to think of it, you're right. There is no "worst" abuse.

Regardless, I keep on flashing back to the past, and the present is bleak as well. I'm writing a book, but it's probably going to end up too short for publication. I can't figure out how to make it longer, and frankly, I have no passion for this particular project even though it has a good concept.

I've written about a dozen books and none of them have been published by major publishers. I'm beginning to feel discouraged.

I have no idea what to do at this point. All I can do is continue plodding on.

Maybe you can ask a publisher for some advice on your book. Perhaps if you have some input from someone like that, you may feel more inspired and have more energy to keep going with things in your daily life.

Sometimes keeping plodding on is just the best we can manage at the time and can sometimes lead us to thinking through our issues and troubles and eventually work out what it is we need to do to move through them and out the other side.