Can PTSD cause violence? / caution trigger

I was diagnosed with PTDS a while ago. I was physically abused as a child and when I was 16 someone I loved almost shot me in the head with a machine gun, then changed his mind and shot himself. When I was in my 20s a painting co I hired had obtained cheap labor by employing a work relase inmate. We didn't know we had an inmate painting the living room and again more violence. I don't have anger about these events at least not that I am aware of. I do have a sense of forshortened future, I really don't know what the term future means and I hold people at a distance. Before the inmate situation I was able to get closer to people. The thing that scares me now is I can be violent. Not in a preditory way but when I sense that I am in danger or someone backs me into a corner. When I'm threatened voices sound like they are far away, I can hear myself speaking but I'm not attached to my voice, the room looks fuzzy, my breathing gets shallow, and good freinds have told me a get a frightening look in my eyes. All of these things scare the shi* out of me when I snap out of it. It is like I was there but I wasn't there. Does any of this make sense to anyone? Can PTSD cause violence or the things I'm describing?

Some of the re-experiencing trauma symptoms is: Anger or aggressive feelings and feeling the need to defend oneself.

Trouble controlling emotions because reminders lead to sudden anxiety, anger, or upset.

If you feel that you are dealing with this then yes. Anger and violence can be contributed to PTSD, the anger of the abuse has to come from somewhere, and from what it sounds like it was your abuser and the fact that someone let in someone that could have been a threat. I'd be angry too.

I took in so much abuse by the time I was 14 that whenever I would be seriously threatened by someone or struck, I would strike back, always with devastating results. I hit 13 people from ages 14 to 24. I maimed all of them, several were hospitalized. I made them pay for all that went on before.

I could have solved 11 of these altercations w/o that amount of violence, the other 3 required some response. I feel sorry now, but not for years.

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