Damn PTSD

Im at the coffee shop with a friend getting hit with PTSD stuff again.
Im still trying to get over how I was treated at the church the other day. Im hated their because I wont play along with the game of church person. Im a person in recovery, that is how I see myself.

Ok

Im at the coffee shop. When ever Im with people or people are around, I get so triggered, its crazy. Its like a loony bin in my head. Im swamped with PTSD. Im all over the place. Finally I just put my hands to my face and let my face fall into them. Im defeated again. I just sit their at the table and don't move.
I use a lot of tapping. Tapping is a way or system to trigger pressure points that release the mind from staying frozen in the moment. I use it all the time. I learned it in Therapy...

Im tapping all the time as people come into the coffee shop. Theirs so many people I dot like or don't trust. All it takes is a glance or within in 20 feet of me and I go off. Theirs just so many of them all around me. I just left a 12 step meeting because people were to close. Now this.

Im learning to hang in their and keep present and keep tapping as long as it takes as I get triggered by so many different people in so many different ways...

I cant get beyond the PTSD.. Not yet...

It sounds like you are doing a good job of working on this. Keep going and you will get there.

Cracked

I agree with CrackedGirl, it sounds like you're doing a great job at working to regain some control over the PTSD.

And I think it's good to take baby steps. Healing comes with time, I think. I wish there was more I could say, but I feel I'm kind of in the same boat as you right now. I wish you the best during your road to healing, though!