Going off alone.

I've had something this wk that has triggered a very old memory. Its brought up so much fear so much feeling of being unsafe in my own home that I have to keep going into my room and shutting the door on my husband and children. I then curl up like a young child and don't know how to rid myself of the hot fear that then runs through my veins. Any ideas pleeeaaasee I am getting ot the stage where I can only think of killing myself to escape my own torment!!

when I get flashbacks it's ussually when I'm trying to sleep, I feel like it's happening all over again. I get so upset I'm not able to sleep for the rest of the night. what I do is free write it's where you just write every thought that goes through your head every feeling that you have, then when it's over you ussually have a better understanding of what you're going through cause it's like your subconsiense is writing on that page. After I write it all down I ussually feel a bit better. Also it helps during therapy because you're actually able to read it to your therapist and they get a better understanding what's going through your mind and it makes it easier for him/her to help you. I also write my dreams in it, I like having my psyciatrist interpret my dreams

Dear Essex: I have been going through something similar to your problem. First and formost, Please type me back and don't do what you are thinking. I must tell you, believe it PLEASE it will not last. Everything changes and everything has its purpose. I know that when i was at my worst i felt just like you but i looked to GOD and i asked him to help and he brought just the right people in my life. ONe thing you must know, is that you are not alone. There are Hundreds of Thousands of people going through there own trials. I had a lady who walked right out of my life for reasons i still wondering about. There is a light at the end of the TUNNEL. You might not think so right now but there is and i guarantee that you will see it again. I don't know your curcumstances but every ones is differnet and just as divastitating. Please get to a good Counselor, if you are a Christian go to a Christian counselor, if you don't even believe at this moment find some help so you don't do something to reliieve yourself. AGAIN, AND I KNOW THAT THE OLD SAYING ABOUT "WHEN THE DARKEST COMES THERE HAS TO BE A DAWN.

Very Sincerely,
GOD SPEED,

RAYMOND R. LOGAN-----------------PLEASE KEEP IN TOUCH
THIS IS MY PERSONELL EMAIL, I am very concerned about you.

rlogan505479@msn.com

I worry as well, especially if i'm having a day where I've been triggered etc, or expierence body memories which happen quite abit.

I wont walk anywhere at night, I don't like being home alone at night, and start to worry the worse possible scenerios.

Hang in there, do you have pepper spray, sometimes just carrying that around if you have to go somewhere or a personal alarm?

have you tried EFT for this? they approach PSTD from an energy perspective and it looks like it has worked with a lot of veterans. they give away the manual online for free. www.emofree.com

you can do it on yourself when you feel those triggers and it doesn't seem to re-traumatize

be well.
len