i need to clear up my past, help would be appreaciated

here's hints of my past;

1. i read something that made me depressed.

2. when i became depressed, it made the world grey-ish and it became sadder.

3. i walked across a bridge, slightly sadder than before, i somewhat enjoyed life and happily bought some candy, then headed way back to work with no worries.

4. the next time i crossed the bridge i encountered a weird guy, i was so frightened, it was terrible, i just wanted to get away from there.

5. on my way back to work he stopped following me, and when i got inside the door and sat down on my chair i shivered.

6. because of my unsettling experience, i refused to go over that bridge again unless using a car or something, i didn't cross that bridge by foot again in my history of being at work at that place again until late 2010.

in conclusion, do you guys think that i just need to pull myself together and realize that i read the stuff some time before i crossed the bridge?

i think it was a trauma, although i learned to cross the bridge after a while, isn't it true that if you've been abused at a particular spot you can feel intense abhor/displeasure when you go back to that place?

can you recover from trauma and learn to go back to that place again?

i think i have ptsd, the experiences may follow me for the rest of my life, but ive managed to overcome my fear of those places and i still travel across them sometimes.

what do you guys think?

Hi there. As a former CPTSD sufferer I can tell you that what you said sounds like something triggered you. This can happen very unexpectedly. Either what you read or when on the bridge something could have reminded you of a past traumatic experience. Triggers do not have to be tangible things. For some a scent or a taste, even a sound can do it. I experienced one of my most intense triggers once by walking past a chain linked fence. I had walked past it a hundred times and nothing stirred in me. Then one day BOOM. My mind set was aligned at the right time to connect with a memory of the past. Timing of triggers is very unpredictable.
So the fence I stood in front of was not the issue. Just like the Bridge may not be yours. The issue is what thoughts and feelings you carry and may have suppressed, that connect to the present.
There is plenty of help available for PTSD. It is my belief that when we are ready to deal with our painful past, the PTSD kicks in to call attention to it. With proper Professional help you can deal with this and move on to a healhty normal life.
With Hope,
One