my ptsd

in addition to schizoaffective, panic disorder and add, i have ptsd. now, mine stemmed from the fact that my stepfather beat me and my brothers and sisters regularly.

my problem is this: everyone can sense that i'm vulnerable, and they pounce on me. they try to tear me down even further. i know schizoaffectives are paranoid but this isnt paranoia. ive had a boyfriend choke me. another one threaten to kill me. its gotten to the point , i can't socialize because i attract all the wrong people. i can't make even one decent good-hearted friend because i guess those people look down on me for being strange.

everyday , i'm not kidding, everyday someone insults me online. i'm a hermit and i don't leave the house. i only go the gym and to get groceries. the internet is my only social connection. yet people online treat me like $#%^. i block right away, but it drives me crazy. i am only 24 and already i am a socially isolated, misanthropic, hermit with no friends and no desire for anymore bad relationships. i just want people to be nice.

Well, you can do me favour here: Point-out to me those who have abused you on this site and they will be gone. It's as simple as that.

Kevin