Starvation PTSD? *Trigger: mentions cannibalism*

I was wondering if my cannibalistic fantasies are a product of long term starvation and malnutrition I experienced as a child? Anyone ever heard of such a thing? My father was a cruel drunk who never came home, squandered his check on drugs and alcohol, and only paid attention to me when he beat me (often for no reason). Even to this day, we never really have enough to eat, if not for food stamps and the local churches I couldn't make it. I like to think it made me tough, I can and still do go days without eating, not really cause I want to, but mostly because my mother , brothers, and his kid need the food more than I do.

Also, I keep having recurring nightmares where i wake up still at Ft.Benning in basic training. They broke me down and never really built me back up....

Ghoul, is there nothing that can be done to get you out of that situation (like getting the authorities to help)? No one should ever have to go without food. You must of thought of everything already, but I had to ask, I'm sorry. Is there any chance of you finding a job?
If you experienced starvation and malnutrition, my instinct would say that your cannibalistic fantasies are related to it, but I'm no expert.

jasmin wrote:Ghoul, is there nothing that can be done to get you out of that situation (like getting the authorities to help)? No one should ever have to go without food. You must of thought of everything already, but I had to ask, I'm sorry. Is there any chance of you finding a job?
If you experienced starvation and malnutrition, my instinct would say that your cannibalistic fantasies are related to it, but I'm no expert.

Exactly. This would seem to be a way for you to vent your supressed anger and need for hunger in one fantasy. The best way to find out would be to feed you all the nutrition you need and see if these fantasies are recurring. (I'm not saying this to be mean at all).

If this is to any help, buying food directly from farmers are much cheaper than buying brands from a store. We're talking perhaps 50% or more profit here. And sorry if I'm stating the obvious, I just can't offer any more help than this

jasmin wrote:Ghoul, is there nothing that can be done to get you out of that situation (like getting the authorities to help)? No one should ever have to go without food. You must of thought of everything already, but I had to ask, I'm sorry. Is there any chance of you finding a job?

There are other people alot worse off than me. No luck with a job, I have no skills outside self taught ones, but people don't care about how good you are at something, they all want a degree or diploma these days. Im actually a decent carpenter and concrete guy, but its slim pickings down here. All the work downtown goes to outta state workers and illegal immigrants working for 25 cent an hour.

Oh crap, that sucks. Keep trying, though, please. Even a job at a hypermarket or something would still help.