is this normal??? help

Lottery,
I don't know if it will help or not but sometimes when it gets a little bad for me, I go on you-tube and think of either an inspirational song or a funny clip. It really depends what is going on as to what would make me feel better. I started a thread in the "just for fun" section where people could put video clips for that very reason.
For my PTSD, you-tube has been some of the best therapy that I could get. Something you may or may not want to try.

I really hope you feel better.

Thanks, will give it a whirl. I have a session with my psyche tomorrow. He doesn't want me to suppress them right now. When I wanted to get in a better frame of mind, I would garden. PTSD has been the greatest thing ever for my hostas. But I can't go on like this letting them play out. I've got to revert back to my adaptations.

Hi there. I am a recovered CPTSD girl. I spent 5 years in full time therapy with an amazing Trauma specialist. I was hospitalized over and over and spent 1 1/2 years as an inpatient. TONS of meds too. But, 2 1/2 years symptom free, no meds, no therapy, no triggers, no dissociation, no flashbacks. I recovered.
It is possible, there is light at the end of this tunnel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!e
Now, heres the but....You cannot out run it, you have to face all the secrets, all the fears,shame, guilt,secrets and crap.
One of my favorite sayings is "what one man can do, so can another". I did and so can you.
Phys paralysis is something I had as well. For me it was my body saying it needed my attention. Not just my body, but my thoughts and emotions. I literally did a FULL STOP. Couldn't move, froze. My mind was saying It was time to get this sorted.
It is a shocking reality that your mind can INSIST on attention. The subconscious can flood and needs your help. So help it. Let those hidden thoughts and feelings and memories out with you therapist.
The ONLY way out is through brave Nellie100. You don't have to be alone in it though. I'm glad you here, You are normal by the way. Your just dealing with a history of trauma. Sorting it fixes it.
With Hope,
One