diagnosed PTSD but confused still

sorry had to delete

Moving, maybe it's just how your body reacts to being startled awake, because you're not "completly awake". Some people feel held down or paralized sometimes if they suffer from sleep paralysis, so maybe it's a bit like that.

Jasmin thank you for your reply, Its not sleep paralysis, I can move and I do move, I shield my face, I know it isn't sleep paralysis, and it does remind me back to something happening a long time ago but I guess the part that confuses me is that I'm aware of what is happening, I am confused and don't always know where I am, but I'm aware at the same time.

I also feel its not just how my body reacts to being startled awake because its not always like that, and in my past as a child they would happen from being awakened, but thats also how my abuse happened. Those two things are linked and it brings me back to that time everytime. There are parts that confuse me that I don't want to say though.

I see, I guess it could be how a memory manifests itself. If you ever need to talk, you can PM me.