May You please Supply me with advice?

Sometimes, I suddenly get anxious while thinking about past tragedies. Sometimes, I hated myself so much for the the tragedies I went through cuz it felt like my fault to the point, where I became suicidal, and at times hate myself for going through it. I have difficulty trusting. I get anxious EXTREMELY easily, and people don't even care and do things just to get me anxious at times. Sometimes, I can not bear not staying on guard and get's extremely anxious if not on guard. Also, at times I get terrible hallucinations, and seizures. I am extremely sensitive about certain things. At night I need the light to sleep, because I fear that if I sleep without the light I'll get abused again. It feels like things are watching me with evil intentions when I am in the dark, sometimes. At times, I'll get extremely paranoid that someone is stalking me out. At times, I think things are possessing me. I get tired extremely easily (sometimes). Sometimes, I feel anxious about the tragedies that I had to go through. At times, I think my hallucinations are real. I have an extremely bad temper. Also, I get very unpleasant mood swings. Any advice on how to deal with these symptoms?

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The 0ther symptoms of PTSD, I would like advice on how to deal with is the physical signs, such as head aches, and stomach pain.
The other symptoms I also need advice is, about how times I get extremely strong urges for revenge on some of the people who abused me. Sometimes, I can't even get the thought of the molestation out of my head, and the memory I just can not stop thinking about, even though I want to halt thinking about the memory. At times if someone does says my certain personal info I get immensely upset, cause it's risking a bad occurrence occurring, there was a time I even went mute due to anxiety, it was temporary though. And,Idk for sure if this is a sign of PTSD, at times though I feel immensely anxious about the people I am around getting molested. Please give me advice about how to deal with those symptoms?

Hi,

Why exactly are you in 'defensive' mode when you go outeach day? - I assume that it's because you are so terrified that any one person could hurt you, right? To be honest, as part of PTSD, this is a natural feeling to have. Therapy is generally the best way to get through things like this but you'll ultimately have to build up confidence in yourself, such that you can say that you yourself are an important, strong person and that no-one can hurt you.

I had the same symptoms as you but a drug helped me to cope. Don't worry, it's a legal drug called Lexapro. It's an SSRI anti-depressant and has the effect of slowing your mind down and 'mellowing' you out. Perhaps you could mention this to your doctor?

Kevin

PS - Don't ever take $#%^ from anyone.

[quote="Chucky"]Hi,

Why exactly are you in 'defensive' mode when you go outeach day? - I assume that it's because you are so terrified that any one person could hurt you, right? To be honest, as part of PTSD, this is a natural feeling to have. Therapy is generally the best way to get through things like this but you'll ultimately have to build up confidence in yourself, such that you can say that you yourself are an important, strong person and that no-one can hurt you.

I had the same symptoms as you but a drug helped me to cope. Don't worry, it's a legal drug called Lexapro. It's an SSRI anti-depressant and has the effect of slowing your mind down and 'mellowing' you out. Perhaps you could mention this to your doctor?

Kevin

PS - Don't ever take $#%^ from anyone.[/quote]
Mostly, I am in a defensive mode, because I fear danger, or feel too upset even risking things.
Thanks, for the advice.

Keep talking about thesee things to [the right] people; and never stop telling yourself that you're a strong person who has just as much right to walk on the footpath (both physically and metaphysically) as any other person.

Kevin

[quote="Chucky"]Keep talking about thesee things to [the right] people; and never stop telling yourself that you're a strong person who has just as much right to walk on the footpath (both physically and metaphysically) as any other person.

Kevin[/quote]
Thanks, so much for the advice!

Shattered_Crystals wrote:Sometimes, I suddenly get anxious while thinking about past tragedies. Sometimes, I hated myself so much for the the tragedies I went through cuz it felt like my fault to the point, where I became suicidal, and at times hate myself for going through it. I have difficulty trusting. I get anxious EXTREMELY easily, and people don't even care and do things just to get me anxious at times. Sometimes, I can not bear not staying on guard and get's extremely anxious if not on guard. Also, at times I get terrible hallucinations, and seizures. I am extremely sensitive about certain things. At night I need the light to sleep, because I fear that if I sleep without the light I'll get abused again. It feels like things are watching me with evil intentions when I am in the dark, sometimes. At times, I'll get extremely paranoid that someone is stalking me out. At times, I think things are possessing me. I get tired extremely easily (sometimes). Sometimes, I feel anxious about the tragedies that I had to go through. At times, I think my hallucinations are real. I have an extremely bad temper. Also, I get very unpleasant mood swings. Any advice on how to deal with these symptoms?

That's really normal for those dealing with past traumas and ptsd If I really tried to focus about my past I'd be anxious too... it was a stressful time. I've often blamed myself too, but now I no longer do it does take quite a bit of time to reach to that point.... I'm always going to be on guard I think if I'm out by myself somewhere and it's not heavily populated, it's something I think that will always happen. What are the cause of the seizures is it something you've had before or did this occur after your trauma?

I think the best thing to do with this is to continue to talk to someone about it. A lot of what you are feeling is really normal, something I've dealt with myself with regards to my past, minus the hallucinations... The more you can talk to someone and learn techniques in order to help yourself when triggered or anxious will help a lot too.


What have you been officially diagnosed with? Were you diagnosed with any anxiety etc ?

[quote="Butterfly Faerie"][quote="Shattered_Crystals"]Sometimes, I suddenly get anxious while thinking about past tragedies. Sometimes, I hated myself so much for the the tragedies I went through cuz it felt like my fault to the point, where I became suicidal, and at times hate myself for going through it. I have difficulty trusting. I get anxious EXTREMELY easily, and people don't even care and do things just to get me anxious at times. Sometimes, I can not bear not staying on guard and get's extremely anxious if not on guard. Also, at times I get terrible hallucinations, and seizures. I am extremely sensitive about certain things. At night I need the light to sleep, because I fear that if I sleep without the light I'll get abused again. It feels like things are watching me with evil intentions when I am in the dark, sometimes. At times, I'll get extremely paranoid that someone is stalking me out. At times, I think things are possessing me. I get tired extremely easily (sometimes). Sometimes, I feel anxious about the tragedies that I had to go through. At times, I think my hallucinations are real. I have an extremely bad temper. Also, I get very unpleasant mood swings. Any advice on how to deal with these symptoms?[/quote]


That's really normal for those dealing with past traumas and ptsd If I really tried to focus about my past I'd be anxious too... it was a stressful time. I've often blamed myself too, but now I no longer do it does take quite a bit of time to reach to that point.... I'm always going to be on guard I think if I'm out by myself somewhere and it's not heavily populated, it's something I think that will always happen. What are the cause of the seizures is it something you've had before or did this occur after your trauma?

I think the best thing to do with this is to continue to talk to someone about it. A lot of what you are feeling is really normal, something I've dealt with myself with regards to my past, minus the hallucinations... The more you can talk to someone and learn techniques in order to help yourself when triggered or anxious will help a lot too.


What have you been officially diagnosed with? Were you diagnosed with any anxiety etc ?[/quote]

Thanks, for the advice. I think the seizures are a result of the trauma, from what I can remember I started having seizures after the trauma, by all the time skews though it's difficult to tell if I even began having seizures before the trauma. By a professional, I have gotten diagnosed with severe depression. According to another professional, that I was tested by I have either ADD or ADHD. I think I may have had depression at some points. I think that I may have been wrongly diagnosed of having ADD or ADHD, plus the person who diagnosed that didn't take my answers seriously, and called me a drama queen. When I was younger I would lie about the symptoms I had and on the tests made it say I have less symptoms than I actually had. I wished I never did that!!!