by Irishgirl » Sun Nov 28, 2004 10:15 pm
my first 'shrink' put me on, get this, celexa, wellbutron, Clonozapam (sp?) and trazadone at night. I left that fella because when I was on the run from my husband I had to phone him on a saturday for a med refill. He was so mad at me for phoning him on his day off he hollared at me, was really abusive. I only saw him four times for ten minutes, hardly spoke a word to me, but sure had a lot of nasty things to say when I needed him the most.
Anyway, now I am seeing a new shrink who spends more time with me. She gave me the diagnosis of ptsd and is changing my meds. She couldn't figure out why he had me on some of those meds I was taking. For instance I had terrible headaches all of the time, she thinks it was from the Wellbutron. Also I have had terrible nightmares most of my adult life along with insomnia. She told me the trazadone is known for making nightmares worse!
She weaned me off the wellbutron, then off of the celexa and the trazadone. Now I am starting over with Zoloft, Seoquel (she said it has seen to be effective in vets with nightmares) and I have just begun taking prazosin for sleeping.
I want to give them a chance, she is increasing them slowly, however it is scary business for me. I hate to disappoint her be telling her they just aren't working! I had to be so perfect and keep up appearances for my husband, you know. Anyway, I don't know if I am still withdrawing from the old meds, or if the new meds aren't working, or if they just aren't working yet. I sure feel anxious, fidgety, still can't sleep well enough, still have intrusive compulsive thoughts. I am practically a recluse. I went for a long walk yesterday morning, I am living in the city now. I am afraid to be out on a saturday morning! At least the headaches are gone. I JUST WANT SOME GOOD SLEEP, instead of having to fight for it, or worse dread it. I just want some sort of peace. I can't work anyway, I wish I could just be sedated, so I could move easily from waking to sleeping and back to waking and back to sleeping.
Getting the meds right is really hard I think.
Sad Irish Girl