by clearblue » Wed Apr 27, 2016 6:08 am
Can't remember where I read it, maybe it was that book on Complex PTSD with the blue cover that flashbacks serve a purpose, albeit a traumatic one, that will keep on replaying until the original trauma is dealt with - i.e. acknowledged, soothed, healed and thus the resolution is completed.
Memory is a tricky thing in trauma and completely unpredictable, it will flash on and off seemingly randomly, or is it? Maybe it's the psyche's way of self-protection - this you will know and this better left alone because it no longer serves me, so it flashes what it needs to in order to bring awareness to what it still needs, in either a warning signal or a positive reinforcement.
There is however a middle path and it's a very fine path, almost invisible, yet it's there from birth. It's been put there for this very purpose and that is to create a new neuropathway. What it is and what it translates to is awareness of the trauma/trigger - but that's easy enough as it gets our attention whether we want to or not - and then TIMING the reaction. All that's needed to go from the trigger to a full-blown panic attack or lashing out is one milisecond or less. It's literally as fast as the speed of light. And then comes placement.
In between the trauma/trigger and the final categorization/compartmentalization is that moment in time of choice.
Trauma/Trigger <> <-------- space for compartmentalization <> split second <> choice <> process of creation of neuropathway completed (or reinforcement of the original trauma where instead of going into the middle I swerve back into the trauma etched pathways). That split second <> is the genesis of a new branch from which a new order of thinking, feeling, sensory processing will then take root and become greater than the sum its previous parts.
This is theory based on texts and what we already know of neurons and how pathways are created. Unfortunately, the overwhelming sensations of anxiety get the best of the rest of us, myself included where I go from 0 to 1000 in a flash and in between that I would need great assistance to move into the inherent space where miracles of new life can happen. Trusting someone enough with that in itself for me would be in the realm of a miracle.