Is it me or what is happening

Hello there

I have suffered abuse at intervals throughout my life and have bouts of depression, sometimes very deep.
The few years of my life have been devoted to healing from trauma and addiction.
My life has yet to fully get started and Im struggling to find my way, causing intense worry and sadness.
I'm quite a sensitive person and the role I'm falling into is of a poor victim.
It doesn't suit me but something seemingly always happens to kick me out of balance.
I feel like I'm easily swayed by other people and judgements/ opinions can hurt me.
I've noticed a disconnection with others increase over the last while and when not alone, the people I used to associate with from support groups seem toxic and dysfunctional.
Could this be projection or what???

I'm going through a tough time and feel like I'm losing my reason.
Any input on the situation would be greatly appreciated.

Perceptivist wrote:
I feel like I'm easily swayed by other people and judgements/ opinions can hurt me.

We suffer from self esteem issues. Many of us try to please others even when it is a detriment to ourselves. The feeling of volunteering and then immediately regretting it. We find it hard to say no. I know people talk about loving ourselves etc. but seriously we need to learn to be selfish, or at least get some balance.


I've noticed a disconnection with others increase over the last while and when not alone, the people I used to associate with from support groups seem toxic and dysfunctional.

Hmmm maybe because they have lots of problems - why they are in the support group. Maybe not to support you, but use you to support them.


I'm going through a tough time and feel like I'm losing my reason.
Any input on the situation would be greatly appreciated.

Over the years I coined the phrase "eat and sleep". It is all that I thought I had needed to get me through. I am now starting to realize that it was also hope. It is not easy for us, never will be, and we will never have the life others take fro granted, but you can find happiness. Don't let go of hope.