Anger and numbness in trauma

So dh and I were ttc, but a deployment got in the way. But I’m angry now because a friend just told me she and her dh are pregnant and I have another friend who’s been trying for a while too. But I’m mad. I hate the military right now for getting in the way and is having to put this on hold and everyone around us gets to get pregnant. I just feel like everything in my life the last couple of years is put on hold and I have to wait and watch everyone else experience stuff that I want. I’m feeling regret and anger and jealousy and just plans pissed off right now. I have never in my life been mad that someone was pregnant. Wtf?