PTSD and Dissociation

What about PTSD and Dissociation?
How much dissociated you feel yourself? In what way?

I'm nowhere near as bad with this as I was a few years ago.. and nowhere near as bad with this as even a few months ago.
I had a habit of dissociating when in stressful situations and I dissociated so far that I couldn't bring myself back out of it for ages afterwards.. it was horrible.
I've been working on grounding techniques for a while now so can get through most situations without doing too badly.
Strange really.. I was thinking about this yesterday and realised that I haven't really dissociated while shopping for a while now - it's faded so gradually that I hadn't noticed how much i've improved.

I can dissociate at will and do this at the dentists - my dentist told me that I was the calmest patient he's ever had and wanted to know if I meditate

How are you with dissociation.? Can you control it at all or is it still completely involuntary and difficult to pull yourself back out of.?

I have a costant dissociation, I am never myself. Half of my life.
I could come back few moments in years with a powerful terrible devastating concentration after trying trying.
Some didnt last, other lead up to abuse and so I turn back.

How can my normal expressions my normal movements lead up to violence?
I know saying that I seem crazy or with a distorted view.
I dont know how I can make others believe that even if its just true with a jealous psychotic woman.

I know it seem a fairy tale. I would have a more emphatic story but I cant help and this is the pain of my life.
Its hard to explain my dissociation to myself too.

Bib I am starting to get your storey and it is not a pleasant one. I will be watching out for you here, look after yourself, be gentle to yourself and take care.

I have a costant dissociation, I am never myself. Half of my life.
I could come back few moments in years with a powerful terrible devastating concentration after trying trying.
Some didnt last, other lead up to abuse and so I turn back.


I know saying that I seem crazy or with a distorted view.
I dont know how I can make others believe that even if its just true with a jealous psychotic woman.

I know it seem a fairy tale. I would have a more emphatic story but I cant help and this is the pain of my life.
Its hard to explain my dissociation to myself too.

^^ I used to be the same with dissociation - I was never myself.. I was literally viewing the world while trapped inside myself and not being able to step out into the world.
Gradually as i've started to heal.. i've been able to stop dissociating and can stay within the world a lot more instead of withdrawing.
It hurts to step out at first though..

How can my normal expressions my normal movements lead up to violence?

^^ what do you mean here please.?
do you mean that when you are fully in the world, people are hurtful and abusive to you.?
I'm really sorry if you do mean that xx

seabreezeblue wrote:

How can my normal expressions my normal movements lead up to violence?

^^ what do you mean here please.?
do you mean that when you are fully in the world, people are hurtful and abusive to you.?
I'm really sorry if you do mean that xx

No, how I am, the way I am triggers the person that wanted destroy my life.

I hate this: I write something and then the pc alone make the log out so when I submit all is delated and it appears the log page.
Some time ago mozilla saved my texts and going back I could find again my text. Now it doesnt.

Thank you Terry you are very kindly.I am very grateful.

We are better at it than others. It takes a lot of invasive years in therapy. Our identities are getting use to connecting thoughts, feelings, and memories...The piece to our puzzle maybe halted due to beleif issues in the therapy process. Healing enough but we also know we might not ever connect all true feeling, thoughts ,and memories..

My psychiatrist (or what it's called) told me i dissociate. At least I did dissociate when I was in the middle of the traumatic experience, for me to survive my brain had to hide.