Do I have PTSD? possibly DID? Sexually detailed

Hello this is my first post so my formatting won't be great. I am a 21 year old male. I normally don't have any issues like anxiety. I have been depressed for a long time and recently I have gotten mild anxiety attacks. These past three days I have had a constant anxiety attack with chest pains can't breath nauseous. The heart of the matter is this, I was engaging in sexual activity with my girlfriend of almost five years(no intercourse). I was letting her try this new toy(anal toy) on me. Everything was going as well as it could for the situation lol. The whole time i was feeling strange like I was a women. When we were finished I was telling her how I felt like I could be me finally because I've recently started thinking I was bisexual and it was bothering me and I also have urges to do girly things. But normally I'm a very "manly" seeming guy listens to metal plays video games. While we were laying there talking I started crying randomly and panicking I stood up and I was walking around and she was trying to calm me down because she has ptsd herself. She was like lets put our clothes back on I walked out into the hall while still crying and panicking to get to my closet. I had to walk back into the room and asked her to get me clothes because I was crying and panicking so much. She grabbed clothes for me and was going to take I shower but I was chanting "I need to hide I need to hide". I went into our third guest bedroom and hide in the tiny closet for half and hour. Until she coaxed me to come out after her shower. For the rest of the night I didn't say anything and was almost in a trance just laying half asleep on the couch. Thats the details I can think of you can ask questions or what not. Thanks for the help

hiya..

first of all, very warm but very gentle ((hugs))
..that sounds like a really awful experience for you

I can't answer whether you have PTSD or DID but it does sound like you've got a lot of confusing and upsetting thoughts and emotions swirling around atm..

For the rest of the night I didn't say anything and was almost in a trance just laying half asleep on the couch.

^^ this bit sounds very much like you closed down emotionally for a little while to let your brain process everything and i'm very glad that you were able to do this with your girlfriend there.. it sounds like she's very caring and you feel comfy with her xx

i won't ask too many questions because i think it's a good idea just to let you have some processing time and sort through all of this in your own space and time..
I think what may be a good idea though - is maybe to think about seeing a counsellor for a little while and have a chat about all of it.. you've got an awful lot of things to think about atm..

xx

Thanks for the warm welcome. I'm definitely considering going back to counseling now that I have a more specific issue. Before when I went for depression I didn't know why. I feel like this issue opened me up to some kind of issue that I don't know about ,suppressed maybe.

Thanks for the advice