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i am 15 and have had over 60 sergical prodedures, i know people out there have it way worse than i do, but i hate it. dr visits, hospitals, the smell, and worse after the surgeries the pain.... i got takin out of school for 2 1/2 months in the beginning, and i didnt have time to make friends, now im a loser who nobody even likes! i dont know how to get past this. i am depressed and angry and often find myself asking god, why me? please help me, i dont really know what to do. what is there in life to look forward to? we live just to die. thanks- please respond

I think most people think they are the only one's who feel alone and misunderstood. At this time frame, the hormonal things going on in a teen age body can make depression even worse. You do need to speak with a professional, to help you through all you feel. Sometimes, it takes a few tries to find the right counselor, please do not give up on trying to make yourself happy. Brighter days will come and there will always be dark ones too, it's part of living. It's human nature to always focus on the negatives, because the negatives are the ones that make a harder empact on us. Do you go outside often, sunshine helps fight depression. You will make friends, but first you got to perk up, it's hard to make friends if your going around looking pissed off and that is true for anyone.
By the way, depression often brings out our cranky side and say things we do not mean, you may need some medicines by the doctor to help pull you up out of the hole you feel your in.