Is this PTSD ?? (Help)

I will keep it short as i can to tell you the story of my condition..

3 years ago (i was 18) i had a group of friends that we used to smoke marijwana togather every day,.. after a short period they started to abuse me every time we get high (while smoking marijwana) but in a strange way.. they used to refer to me while they talk together (in a hidden meanings or indirect way) as a girl or sissy guy(which iam actually not).. by commenting on some actions or things i've said as if they are talking about some girl or someone else (not me)... but i was taking that as a reference or abuse to me cause they were including things that relate to my action/hisotry/activities/things i've said... (don't know why they were doing that.. i used to think that maybe because iam too thin or have a bad look image or look too young)
i didn't stop meeting them afterwards cause they were my only source for marijwana.. so i kept experiencing this stress for a bout a year or less... and if i someday got angry or made a problem with them or tell them why they are abusing me.. they always said we were not talking about you!..
at that time and later i started to feel very strange when iam out on the streets or in a crowd of people.. i used to feel that people are watching me and watching my actions and how i behave so they relate that of me being sissy or acting like girls) i used to feel very uncomfortable among people or stranger or on the streets.. sometimes feel like car horns are ment as if drivers are noticing that iam looking like a sissy or a girl or acting like to.. sometimes feel like that people on the streets are noticing that too and will try to abuse me indirectly as what happened to me before with me friends... and what it drives me crazy is when iam with people wheather or not i know them or family and there is a conversation about girls or sissies i feel like they are talking about me or abusing me in an indirect way ir refering to me.. another thing to that happens with me alot which is if iam watching a movie or something with any friends or people and someone comment on an actress on the movie i think they are using the movie to abuse me indirectly or to refer to me... even if iam sure this is not true.,. i sometimes fear that a girl on the movie (or a talking about girl) say thing or have thing which i've said/have make people notice that its refering to me and notice that iam anixous to that so they think that iam feeling sissy or so...also if iam listening to a song that talking about girls among people or firends, i feel very uncomfortable

beside that, i started to lack joy of anything that used to enjoy me.. lost all friends... stopped collage and iam having a hardtime alone

anyway i stopped the marijuwana used to go to doctors, tried many medications like anafranil, risperdal, seroxat, seroquel but still suffering..

is that ptsd ? or a schizophrenic thing ?
what is happening to me ?

Sorry about your nasty friends "we can all do without that" It's not for me to say because im not a doctor but it doesnt sound like PTSD it sounds more like paranoia and you could possible develope social phobia if you havent already.

With dope as you know you become more paranoid than usual, i remember one time when i was taking dope i felt as though people were watching me but when id look round nobody was watching me. also dope can cause psycosis if you type into google the word psycosis you will be able to read more about it as i havent got a good memory.

Anyway thats enough from me Take care

Hey, I had a friend experiencing exactly the same, he thought me and his other friends was talking $#%^ about him in code.
Took me a whole day to explain to him that I loved him as my bestfriend and I'd never do that, and that none of the others in our stoner group would ever do that either.
He took a pause from marijuana about 3-4months and became good again...

Don't think it's PTSD, it sounds more like schizophrenic paranoid, but I doubt your going that if u just chill wit' the weed for a while.
I've had serious schizo symptoms (delusions) myself so I'm takin' a break from maryjane

That is not PTSD. It is not paranoid schizophrenia, either.

It sounds like it IS an issue with believing others are looking at you and laughing at you. It sounds like you lack self-confidence because of how your "friends" treated you.

A book that might help you with masculinity issues is Wild At Heart, by John Eldredge. Even if you don't share the author's religious beliefs, it might still be a good read. I liked reading it, and I am a girl!

IMO you developed social anxiety. And anxiety disorder related to people and social situations. Paranoia is common aswell as a list of other things suck as anxiety/panic attacks. Of course for a proper diagnoses seeing a professional is best. These problems can be helped with medication.

I have had the same issues you describe pretty severely for most of my life. I think it developed from getting toyed with by a whole family of more grown up bullies every single day for half an hour at the bus-stop when I was in elementary school. My brother had recently been killed, my dad was cheating on my mom and threatening to leave etc. and I was allready a very shy, sensitive person to begin with. They exercised exactly the same passive, cerebral, intentional humiliation that you said your friends did when they were messing with you. I had no defense that just wouldnt be used to humiliate me more. Regardless of whether your friends actually were messing with you or the pot just temporarily made you paranoid, it seems youve developed some anxiety from the situation. It also could be you just are experiencing depression or social anxiety that is revealing itself now that the stresses of life are getting greater as you grow up. It could not be a result of that situation at all is what i mean.

I dont know exactly what that kind of paranoia we have described is labeled as, for example if its anxiety/panic/social phobia.. I dont know (I will take the time to look it up in 30 seconds though and you prob should too). However, some of the people here innocently jumping to the conclusion that it sounds like paranoid schizophrenia just because your thinking about people talking about you sounds very wrong and dangerous to me and I'll tell you why.

I had a doctor who diagnosed me as emerging schizophrenic at 16 or 17 mainly because I told him of similar symptoms you described. I knew why he thought that, and its the same reason some of these people came to the same conclusion he did: ignorance (no offense, its totally innocent ignorance. I wish I were ignorant of whatever the 'issue' at hand is too). He threw away a couple years of my life and turned it somehow into an even worse living hell than it already was. He turned my parents against me and made them believe I was insane and irrational and dangerous. I couldn't talk to them about anything, they wouldn't listen because they didn't trust me, they trusted the doctor.
Some of the medicines he started having me try made my anxiety/depression much worse and I was suddenly majorly suicidal at times. I didn't want to be trying these new meds while I was in school because I knew I could become a real danger to myself if I was dealing with the biggest stressor of mine (social anxiety) while on a med that made it 10 times worse. I tried to tell my parents this. I told them I would be happy to try any and every med in the world the doctor wanted me to try when summer came, but I felt like I might become a serious danger to myself if I kept taking them while school was going on. They basically told me that I didn't understand how insane I was and that me thinking the meds were making me more suicidal was just another example of how insane I am.
The next morning 3 police officers woke me up while I was in my bedroom with my mom at the door and stood and watched me get dressed while I was just in my boxers. They escorted me to an ambulance and took me to the psych ward at the hospital. As a result, I had to drop out of my then current school. When I got out of the hospital (where I basically led all of the group meetings and was told by the staff many times I had my mind together better than anyone they had ever known) and came home my dad told me he was divorcing my mom, not that my doctor had anything to do with that. And it goes on and on. Anyway, now I'm 22 and still haven't heard any noises or voices whatsoever that weren't there and i've still never in my life thought that the government is out to get me. I'm now trying medicines for my depression/anxiety which have helped tremendously with the help of a doctor who is not such a dumbass, because he actually has some depression/anxiety issues himself and he understands the feelings I describe. He doesn't just hear paranoia and slap a label on me and cart me off to the looney bin like my previous dumb ass doctor, and parents, did.
I only say all this to warn you to be wary of ignorant doctors, they can take you for a ride that really sucks. I went into the psychiatrist for the first time thinking they know what they are doing and I just spill the beef to them and they can fix my head up (i thought this for about a full year actually). The truth is, unless you just happen to get incredibly lucky and find a medication that helps your issues right off, you are going to need to do alot of the research and work yourself in order to help yourself. Only you know whats going on in your head, you need to read up on forums and meds and what meds have helped most with what kind of issues. Read up about disorders and what their symptoms are. Its really very simple, just takes some time. Whatever you do, don't think that if you read about some people having some horrible effect from a medicine on a forum that you'll get that too or vice-versa: if it helps them tremendously that it will do the same for you. Everyone will react differently to medicines. You should goto your doctor with an idea for the next medicine to try, there are hundreds. Its best to do your research before hand every time you visit your doctor. I don't know if you or your family can afford it but seeing a therapist/counselor is good too.
Anyhow, sorry I typed so much, but I can relate pretty well to your situation. Don't feel too down or anything man. If you cant work it out without meds, trust me when I say I guarentee you there is a med that will help you with your depression/anxiety. You likely might have to try a bunch to find the right one though.
My suggestion for your next med to try would be 5mg of adderall. But thats just the amateur psychiatrist in me. Good luck.