My Poem : beneath it all

i cant relate to it all, but there is deffinatly something true about every point.. though they might not fit every persons life.

i like point 4 the most

Yes, I like that point too.

Number 5, I'm that someone that thinks about you before I go to sleep. OF course, I've only done this for a few nights, because I've only known you for a few nights. But you get the picture. But I'm sure I'm not the only one that thinks about you a lot. If that whole thing applies to me (which i somehow doubt), I wonder who is the persont that I don't even realize they exist. I just don't think there is anyone like that. I am the person that cares about this one guy, but he doesn't know I exist. It sucks. I wish I could show him how much I care about him, but I dont' think it will ever happen. He ignores me a lot, and i just...I really like him. I wish I could show him that. I'm starting to realize, that I'm not longing for everyone to care about me as much as I care about them, but I'm longing for them to know how much I care for them.

who is this guy? i mean where did you meet him? and how care for someone so much if you think he doesnt even know you excist?

i do think there is someone for everybody... i just think theyll never meet him/her...

well maybe it helps for you to know i know you care

I've known him from church for about *counts* two and a half to three years. HE doesn't talk to me very often, but sometimes he does. It started off as just a crush, and I guess that's all it is now. I know I"m not in love with him, but I do love him, if that makes sense. I don't know why I care so much about him. It's not just a case of I think he's cute or whatever. I really care about him. He can be so sweet at times, and I don't know why, but I just care about him so much. And even though he barely knows I'm alive, I still care about him. I want him to be happy. I want him to have everything he's ever dreamed of and more. BUt he doesn't know. He doesn't know how often I think of him. he doesn't know that I pray for him a lot. He doesn't know that I would give almost anything for him. And I don't even know why i feel this way about him. I just know that I've felt this way for a long time. I can't say this, because I don't know, but I think I would be willing to give my on life for him, if the need ever came. But it's easy to say that, because there probably will never be a time when I would need to die for him. I guess all of this sounds silly and immature, but it's how I feel.

well maybe it helps for you to know i know you care

You have a wonderful talent. You are talented at making me smile.

~element

your niether silly nor immature. trust me on that

maybe you should kick your butt to his front door knock on it and tell him how you feel... its radical but as a wise man once said.. you only live once so why not give it your all?

Thanks for the suggestion. But I could never do that. He wouldn't be happy with me anyway. He's a little bit too old for me anyway. Only like 4 and a half years, but I'm sure that's significant right now. Oh, well. I really do wish I could let him know how I feel, but he's probably better off not knowing. Eventually i will not longer care for him (although I really don't see it ever happening), and it wont' be important anymore. I'm just having a hard time convincing myself of what I just said.

~element

saying it is harder than believing it... but like you said it will come in time *smiles*

and if you ever feel bad about that situation you know where to find us

Thanks. It's really nice to know that I have someone to talk to about everything!!