A Wager You Bet

Where are these thoughts coming from?
You have always hated me dear
I try harder and harder
but you keep me in the dark

You push me away
with your ridiculous claims
I push harder and harder
but it is always the same

I will never be good
as you want me to be
I am but a joke
in the portrayal you see

My undying effort
is never good enough
I will always have to resort
to the poker you bluff