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i feel your pain..

in the literal sense of the word ?

WOW. THIS POEM IS INCREDIBLE, I could feel your every word... I know I keep changing my mind about this, but I'm pretty positive that this is my favorite of all of your poems. I was so sad to read your words, though; I'm sorry that you're in so much pain right now!!!! *HUGS*

"but noone really gives a ###$ Im just a fool
deranged, ugly really not that cool
nail me onto a door and let me dangle
a ######6 retard no matter what the angle"

It makes me so sad to read these lines; I know how painful it is to feel this way about yourself, because that is exactly the way I feel about myself. But I want you to know that I "give a ###$"; I think you're a great person who's going to do great things someday with all of this talent and intellect.

Now onto the stanzas that caught my eye the most...

"all the people they say Im deranged
I never realized I was so strange
lost myself in this day and age
and tired enough not to turn the page"
-Are you saying in these lines that you have been rejected and stereotyped by society, and that you've started to view yourself the way they view you? That's just how I interpret it, but correct me if I'm wrong.

"mourning over the bodies of those who died
I didnt know them but still I cried
because every single one of them couldve been me
if I wanted them to be... "
-These lines gave me chills... I can't say in words how much I can relate to this feeling.

"im not nothing..."
-Interesting ending... Is this an after-thought; are you deciding that although you are in so much pain and feel this way about yourself, you realize deep down that you deserve better?

TAKE CARE!!!!<3