Daylight

I observe the light
feel soothed by its presence
My breathing calming
from anxious to serene
I look into my heart
I blow a wish to the window
a hopeful prayer
for peace in the world
I wait til I focus
then visualize equanimity
feel that I am free
to wander from time
to time - I'm old enough
to know what I want
I understand my pain
My reclusiveness...
I'm different I feel
I can't seem to find
what I'm looking for
I guess it will have
to find me
like my cat does
She comes to me
not vice versa
the breeze blows
through my hair
without my asking
the horse leads you
without you telling him
I will be patient
and life will find me
behind all the closed
doors
new beginnings
once more