To the Child I Lost

this poem i wrote after i had a miscarriage. i had found out i was pregnant on a thurs and i lost it on sunday. it broke my heart - i really wanted that baby.
here is what i wrote and i keep it in a frame. even tho i was so very early into the pregnancy, i made a connection to that little life.
(i wrote this several months after the miscarriage)


A wonderful new journey that started
in my womb...........
Three days of amazing excitement and
happiness sadly turned into darkness and
gloom.
What went wrong? It is such a shame.
In my heart and mind it is my own
body that is to blame.
I loved you from that moment I learned of
you. I was so happy at the thought of having
not one child, but two.
Sadly, we were unable to meet. Your due date
would be soon, just a few more weeks..........
I longed to feel you growing inside me- - to feel
your numerous kicks. I would have been
here for you always, to take care of you when
you got sick.
I miss you so much. I wish you were here. In my
heart always you will be near.............
I love you

This is very beautiful and well-written, and I'm so sorry that you had a miscarriage. My mom also had a miscarriage and I know how hurt she felt (she wrote a letter to her lost baby in the form of a poem), so although I don't have any personal experience, I know that it must have been very hard on you! We're here for you!!!

thank you so much!

Oh god, sorry if this afraids u or anything, but I will love to have a mother like u, U seem so sweet, my mother is a disaster and she have done things to me, horrible things and I cant get any help, she's made me go bulimic and a smoker I cant get out of that mess But I loved ur poem.

Wanna know something strange?

I read your poem yesterday and I didnt reply, but when I got into my bed and fell asleep I dreamed of it! it was somethingamazing and painful at the time...But Id definitly love to have a mom like ya

Bye..xxxxx

hi there simple! thank you for your note. glad you liked the poem.
i am sorry your mother has messed you up!
i have learned that we have to look mostly inside ourselves for what we need. people can fail us all the time but we can give ourself the strength and support that others cannot. definately a skill to be learned tho! we cannot change what happened yesterday but we can try to change tomorrow. do not give up on yourself. it is never too late unless we are dead!

thxx a lot, its not that easy but i'll take it in mind