Dear Mommy

Im a part of your flesh
Im the one u gave birth
And the one u left.

Even if u still here
I dont want you to mess
Wanna scape somewhere u're not

Thank you for everything
But I think its enough
Yes, u say u're always there
But for what?
for bringing me down
Push me to the ground
To tell me Im ugly
To tell me Im stupid
To say Im a shame
To laugh when I fall
For making u strong.

Mommy Im not the girl you wanted me to be
Im sorry.

When u saw cuttings in my hands and arms
You told me I deserved to die
Once U told me I was too fat
Thanxx mommy Im sick because of that.

I wosh I could die
Just for one reason
To watch a tear falling from your face
Tp give my funeral
a bit of grace.

So dear mom
All left I can say
Is
I hate you mommy...

Maybe u'll think Im stupid And I dont apreciatte my mom for this but excuse this is my true feeling for my mother, I hope some of u like it,

thanxx, SimpleNatss

Hun nobody will think your stupid...I absolutely love it and Im glad you finally decided to post it. Although it is sad it is a beautiful write and I wish you the best of luck with all that your going through.

your poem is very good. what a sad way to grow up. i am sorry you were mistreated and i am sorry you are in pain. are you getting some help in dealing and coping? i hope that you are and that you can find happiness somewhere in life. please dont cut - you deserve better than that.

Thannxx its not easy stop cutting and its not that easy as they say to quit bulimia but well...I need help in a lot of things but Im very afraid to tell them and dont wanna tell my mom to take me to a psicoligist she'll kill me if I say that...That poem meas a lot but well....

Thnxx plis post more replies...

luv ya..

hi again. may i ask how old are you? do you have any close relatives or friends to confide in or who could help you?

This is a beautiful poem, and I'm so sorry that you've been treated so cruelly by your mother. Please know that we are here for you anytime if you feel like you need someone to talk to! PM me anytime, I'm serious...
I also know what you mean about the cutting; it's very hard to stop, but I'm glad that you are trying. As for the Bulimia, I used to have an eating disorder, and I know what a slippery slope it is. I can tell, though, that you're a very strong person, so keep trying to move forward! You can do it!!!!
And please never forget that no matter what your mother tells you, you are beautiful and you are loved.
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drama_queen

Sorry, I know you just posted, but have you ever thought of talking to another adult you trust, maybe an aunt or uncle, about how you're feeling? Maybe they can help convince your mom to let you get treatment. Also, I know it's the summer, but if you could possibly get in touch with a guidance counselor from your school, maybe they could help you.
Good luck, and keep hope alive!!!
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drama_queen

hey, thxx for replying, well Im 13 I think ur right bout getitng guidance, but its been awful this month, my grandfather died he was the only person that knew what my mother did wrong all the time... he past away leaving another emptyness in my heart...

I know I should get help...but its soo difficult to talk and explain things up...I just cant...And forgett bout a psicologist...If I tell my mom I wanna see one she'll kill me...

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luv ya...xxxx

SimpleNatss

Hey SimpleNatss,
I'm so sorry about the death of your grandfather! My grandmother actually just died about a month ago, so I can imagine how hard this must be for you, especially since you two were so close.
I know that the idea of getting help or talking to someone is hard, but please just consider it... In the end, I really think that you'll be glad that you did! (But I don't want to pressure you.) Meanwhile, feel free to pm me if u ever need to talk- I'm a teenager too, so I think I can identify with a lot of the stuff ur going through.
Take care, hon!!!!!!
Plz hang in there!!!!!!
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drama_queen

Oks, Ill try to Contact you. . . ! But Ive really considered to get help but they all want to go directly to my mom thats something I DEFENITLY DONT WANT Sorry. . .

Thxx for ur help drama_queen its great to know at least you care and take the time to write me. .

My mail is Natss_26@hotmail.com contact me if u can

Luv yaaa

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P.S : How old are you?