I don't know what to do or think anymore...

Hi I have been married for 9 years now and my story is a little bit sad. Many people think I have a great husband who is a hard worker and will die for our daughter and for myself even but what they don't know is that he hits me whenever we argue... Not long ago he broke my nose and the latest trend is that he tries to choke me and he says it is all my fault because I'm always fighting with him. I know he works a lot and he is an ok dad (whenever he is around which literally is 1 day a week) but he never has time for our baby or for me... When he comes home from work I just tell him I'm not happy about this situation and that he is missing a lot of our baby's first years and he treats me like crap. I try to start a conversation and he gets upset about everything I say, I feel he doesn't respect me and I see he is no interested in coming home to us because he always puts his job first. His ambitions in life are to become rich and have a big successful business which I understand who wouldn't like that but I guess those ideas won't let him see beyond that. The truth is I'm exhausted and disappointed at the same time I never expected to see myself in a situation like this, I'm unhappy, I feel no one loves me not even a little bit just my daughter and she is only 1 year old. I wish I could just run away and leave everything behind me but I can't. I'm in school now and I have nowhere to go and I don't want to be a burden for anybody. My parents live very far and I can't count on them. I have no brothers or sisters and friends are not an option. I'm living in a cage I can't get out of... maybe next year when I graduate, I keep telling myself that... In the meantime all I can do is think I have worked hard in life to get here and I can't give up now right? My daughter depends on me so I have to finish... yes I have to be able to tolerate it for a while longer.... MONEY is not everything in life...

I'm sorry to hear you are in this situation at the moment. It is important that you do what you need to in order to make sure you and your child are safe. Have you considered seeing a therapist in order to help you process your feelings about this situation and to help you to learn what you might be able to do in order to make yourself safe from this man? I think a therapist could help you greatly... You might even have access to one at the school you attend, you should ask there to try and find out...