Terry E. wrote:Are you happy. Not sometimes, or occasionally but enough of the time to say, yes happy.
No mortgage stress, no job stress, no sleep deprivation from sick kids and you are still obviously unhappy. Doubt it will get better.
Think about planning a move out. Resources, money etc. Start planning today even if you are still hoping it can turn around. Build a fall back.
I don't really know how to use this so bare with me..
Yes I would consider myself happy, but as soon as this happens, all of that can just dissapear. But if he just apologizes or starts acting like himself it all goes away and I'm happy again. But sometimes like this morning he does everything to try and make me even more mad and depressed. He tore the cords out for the satelitte, he took the cords for the Internet. (I still have interenet on my phone) but he throws a temper tantrum to get his way.
As for the morgage, we already have one, we've been together 6 years and have lived together for the last 3 and had a house for 1.
And moving out. Here's the thing.. Well I'm 22, my parents have no room for me. I failed a test in school in May, and therefore failed my program. (That's another story).. So I got a job in June-November in road construction, got laid off in November, went for bunion surgery in November and was not able to walk for 6 weeks and in a cast for another 4, but I didn't qualify for unemployment. So my boyfriend paid my bills, until we just did taxes, I paid to get our taxes done, he owed so we used some of my return to pay that off, I ended up with $2000 left. So I figured sweet I'll finally have some money to help out, well he's been lending money to his parents cause they have a $12000 Doller loan payment coming up. (They are farmers). So he gave them my $2000. I get that he paid my bills for a few months but now I have nothing. He drives my car back and forth to work, not like I have any money to put gas in it to leave anyway. And I live in a town with 200 people and the nearest city is 2 hours away.. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? The thought is overwhelming and that's when I starting getting suicidal.