Could I have masochistic personality disorder?

I seem to almost find it fascinating to watch myself downward spiral to see how far I can go. It's like I'm preparing myself for a violent climax in the end, perhaps a massacre. I also just like being seen as a nasty loser by people, especially girls. I want them to fart in my face. I sometimes have sex with lemons for a masochistic, spiritual procedure. I indulge in it when I get shots, especially when they draw my blood. I also asked some muscular guy to give me an intense wedgie. So, I think I have both a masochistic personality and just masochism in general.

This is even bizarre by your standards. Are you any good at drawing? If you are, you should seriously consider channeling this into a graphic novel.

CloudShark wrote:This is even bizarre by your standards. Are you any good at drawing? If you are, you should seriously consider channeling this into a graphic novel.

Oh.. Are you serious? Well, maybe we should create a superhero team.

wolfgrave14 wrote:

CloudShark wrote:This is even bizarre by your standards. Are you any good at drawing? If you are, you should seriously consider channeling this into a graphic novel.

Oh.. Are you serious? Well, maybe we should create a superhero team.

Yeah, I'm serious. I think that finding a creative outlet for this would be good for you!

My spirit animal is a chipmunk though. That would be a weird combination with your dog and wolf.

CloudShark wrote:

wolfgrave14 wrote:

CloudShark wrote:This is even bizarre by your standards. Are you any good at drawing? If you are, you should seriously consider channeling this into a graphic novel.

Oh.. Are you serious? Well, maybe we should create a superhero team.

Yeah, I'm serious. I think that finding a creative outlet for this would be good for you!

My spirit animal is a chipmunk though. That would be a weird combination with your dog and wolf.

We should start messaging each other again. I'd really like to become a comic book writer now a days. I have a superhero vigilante idea called "Night Terrier". He's a humanoid decaying terrier type creature that goes around punishing villains by turning their fantasies into a nightmarish, avant-garde, reality. If you're a homicidal pedophile then Night Terrier will give birth to a big empty baby with a chainsaw penis that rapes the criminal. you and I should start working for DC. Wolf and chipmunk sounds like interesting duo to me.

I know I'm a sexual masochist but am I a non-sexual masochist?
Maybe.
For instance, I seem to be the only one who likes being emotionally numb and don't wanna change that.
I usually like it when girls be mean to me, it turns me on but recently some guy on a liveshow and his buddies were making fun of me and I kinda liked it, not in a sexual manner but I just thought it was funny.
I'm kinda self deprecating but there is always limits to things.
There are moments were I want to go deeper down the downward spiral of the rabbit hole.
I understand the fart fetish, but lemons?
I would not do that, but if you like it and it doesn't hurt you or others, do you.
I've masturbated with a rock before. (Ok, many times).
I know, I'm weird.
I also believe rocks can heal and have magical powers.
Sometimes I carry a rock with me in public for that very purpose, to have good luck.
But to get back to the original point, Masochistic Personality Disorder is no longer recognized in the DSM.
So, with all that being said, I cannot tell, you could be both a sexual and non-sexual masochist, but then again maybe just a sexual one.
I'm trying to figure out myself as well, I know most definitely a sexual masochist but I'm not sure about a non-sexual one, maybe.