Feeling very special all the time.

I feel very special all the time and I just can't stop it. It's like a beautiful rash that you just wanna lick ten times over and observe the bacteria smudge out. So I have this issue with being socially fit and all. Quite often I find myself distressed in public when faced with watching other people do their thing and then question myself wether I'm supreme to their thoughts or not. I acknowledge the fact of 'everybody feeling insecure sometimes' and all the cute frames they put you up to in school, but this has surpassed for about 10 years and I'm 25 years old at this point. I find myself repeating myself in terms of puzzling away in thoughts everywhere, considerably often regarding my higher sight of awareness to others, ironically forgetting the fact that they regulate themselves and I don't. Which brings me to forget it all and then snaps out of it 2 hours later with the body full of sweat, all meetings forgotten and nothing to do for the rest of the day. My girlfriend note myself as severely absent-minded on a daily -ish basis.

There - now i feel even more special. Thanx, kisses and hugs.