Ok.

Partridge, I can see what you mean and I agree, I guess it's a very sensitive situation.

I guess I concede the point it is wrong. Also, on a side note... If anyone sees this, and that person thinks I may act sometime if I post something that may suggest it, could you please just post this word?
Misaki-Chan

Thank you everyone for your help, you have been a lot more understanding then the other few people I've told.

It's good that you've been able to talk to people here, Kon. I'm glad you were able to find some understanding and support here on all this. After all, that's what this site is for, and I'm glad to see this happening.

Of course this thread has not been without debate, like many threads on this forum and site nowadays. Sorry that happened, but some of it was necessary, I believe. It's good that this didn't hijack your thread into oblivion or discourage you from reading or posting further.

Hope all is going alright, and remember to keep your chin up.

Kon,

I kinda got distracted with the moderator's comments to other posters, that should have happened in PM from the beginning, in-between everything that was important to this thread. I am sorry you even had to read those posts. You didn't need that on top of everything else you are already dealing with.

First of all, I think you are too young to label yourself as anything.

To be clear, he does not view illegal content or actually abuse real children. He has urges though for young kids, is this something that he needs to get help?.

I hope you really do not view pictures and videos. I would even stay away from Anime that depicts this if it is legal in your area. One thing that I have learned is if you look at this stuff it desensitizes you. Pretty soon it isn't as horrifying as it should be. This doesn't only mean pictures and videos. This also includes stories and chat rooms. The only thing you will find in a chat room is a predator. He/She will be someone who will encourage you to act on your thoughts. You are so young and impressionable I would fear for you if you do this! The same thing with the stories! To continue doing any of this, if you are, would be very hazardous.

Well, please don't judge me but its more of considering something conseual or non-conseual with a girl around 5-7.

Please don't! You will hurt her in more ways than you could imagine. There is no way a child, especially this age, can even consent. If anyone is telling you different they are lying!

I personally don't see why, but I guess if so many people say it is that's probably it.

All you have to do is go to the abuse section of his forum and read what survivors are going through. Not only what they felt when they were forced to do things that never should have been done to them! But also now as they are trying to come to terms with what happened to them!

I'll try and not be around children so that if an opportunity arises where I wouldn't be caught I wouldn't do it.

I think if you stopped doing the things that caused you to think about this constantly you would give your mind a chance to understand. To understand the damage you would cause to everyone around you. Not only the little child you would be abusing, but also your parents and family. And especially to you as well!

I am pulling these from another post you made in another area.

I am pretty much a shut-in. I stay home on Friday and Saturday nights usually, and can't remember the last time I was even at someone else's house just to hang out. I barely communicate with my parents.

Did you use to hang out a lot with friends? Did you use to have some sort of social life? Have you always been so aloof with your parents? Is there anything you can think of that might have happened that changed this?]

I am very much affected by anime, it is my love.

Some of this can be very extreme. Be very careful! I would stay away from the inappropriate sections. The ones depicting underaged. This is not helping the situation at all!

I personally think if you need to do as GinaSmith suggests :

Exercise, fresh air, daylight, regular healthy meals, good sleep, plenty of social contact with nice human beings, more exercise, a spot of frantic masturbation, and honing your empathy so as to see things from the perspective of the child, etc. Not to say you shouldn't seek therapy or medical advice - but I do think that the latter two shouldn't be seen as panaceas. They need to be coupled will a generally healthy life.

If you do choose to seek help might I suggest telling your parents it is cuz you are anti-social and cant seem to snap out of it. I think once you start filling your life with something other than anime then you will so much better off.