Is it wrong if noone gets hurt?

Since then I have refused to do any massage or even be with the girls alone.

This is good to do but I do wonder why you chose this course. What is it that would cause you to go further than you have as of yet? Can you explain what action it would take to put you over the edge?

You sound high risk. Keep away from those girls and children in general. Point blank period.

The problem is that this " feeling their little vagina lips" is a criminal act because of the ages of the girls.For that reason,you have made a wise decision about no longer providing massage services for them.The next step now is to stop the fantasizing about them.That activity although innocent fun to begin, can lead to acting out the fantasy when any opportunity occurs in the future with any girl.

Fantasies,especially emotionally charged fantasies as yours are,give instructions to the subconscious mind to arrange for the execution of the fantasy.Our subconscious minds do not have moral and behavioral restraints and they interpret repeated thoughts,most especially pleasurable sexual thoughts, as commands to carry out which they are fully capable of creatively arranging in time by feeding you irresistible temptation thoughts.

I can see the point that would turn you around put you down the wrong path. If you have been reading the post on romance type attractions you might get a better idea of what is going on in your head. It could be that the romantic part is missing in your diet and you may have been romanticizing the massage but when the idea of sex without the romance was introduced you couldn't continue to perform.

You may want to look into having a romantic evening with someone without introducing sex into the relationship to see how you are affected. My guess would be that you are very uncomfortable in that type of situation.

P.S. try to tone down the descriptions. I would hate for those that have been abused to have nightmares.

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