Voyeurism and Frotteurism guy

Hello everyone,

I'm 23 year old and i'm still a virgin and i don't have any friends (so any friends to talk with about my paraphilias).
I never touched a girl and i never succeeded seducing girls , they consider me as a geek , or in the better scenario, a friend who's some kind of an assexuated winnie the pooh who is sexually deprived and can merely plays the role of confident with girls.
I can't get enough of stalking and following girls in the streets (i make sure they don't detect me) and when they disappear or take taxi cabs i immediately go to the closest building/residence in the highest floor (where no one can hear me) to masturbate
It has been the 79th time i do this
I consulted 2 psychologists but unfortunately they didn't find any tangible help , they just tried to analyze the situation and i know where the problem comes from of course even before i made an appointment with those money vampires :

sexually immature
sexually frustrated
poor relationship with father
overprotective mother (castrative mother)
poor social and sexual skills
low self-esteem and high self criticism
young and chronic masturbator

Everytime i act voyeur, it's like a cocaine rush i mean it's an uncontrollable and very impulsive act. I got caught in a building a day by the concierge and i begged him and i gave him money in exchange of his silence. But i was so close from being imprisoned.
Yesterday, i entered the frotteur field by will. I'm so extremely frustrated to not touch girls intimate parts that I decided to go into crowds to discover what it feels like, however I already know that i will die a voyeurfrotteur and a virgin .

The attitude that you have in the last line is entirely unproductive, but it will hold true if that is the level of confidence you have for your future. The truth is that you CAN change who you are, completely, and that you could some day be married and live a 'normal' life. That is a long way into the future, but do'nt let that put you off trying to change, starting now.

Your behaviour must stop. I cannot say it any different. It must stop because stalking is illegal and some day you will most likely be caught in the act.

What exactly did you relay to your psychologists when you met them? If you told the whole truth, then I do not understand why little was done. I'm aware that there is a severe lack of help for people in your position, but did they not refer you to someone else such as a therapist?

Anyway, In my opinion, you should tackle this in one way only: Focus on developing a network of friends and take the necessary risks/steps to improve such a network. What do you do each day? - If you study or work, then go out sometime with the group. If you say to yourself that you don't want to, then just go anyway and see what happens. What else are you going to do? - stalk more girls? If you don't do anything each day, then ask your parent(s) or sibling(s) for ideas about how to 'get' friends. Typically, one would do this by joining a gym or other 'club'. Again, if you say to yourself that you dont' want to do it, then just do it anyway.

Good luck,
Kevin

I am not sure what went on with the mental health professionals you seen, but maybe you did not take it serious enough. One has to want to change. People that do not act on before getting in trouble, usually have something devastating happen to them, before they take it serious and start working on it. Like there picture on the evening news with a creepy story about them.
Many people have suffered from things on your list and went on to live normal lives.
For me thankfully, I think in terms of reality, which is helpful in changing. Although my issues were different than yours, it is really the same thing in terms of changing. Try to start focusing on what people think of you as a person and how to change it. In reality people may not see what you do in private, but it overflows to how you do act in public. In many cases you only have to talk to person for a few minutes to see that things are not right with them, and then people start to treat them different or stay away.
Try to start thinking about what the end results of your actions could bring, if happen to follow the wrong gal, with a boyfriend or husband that prefers to deal with it himself and has the ability to do so. You could get hurt very badly. What your not considering is there are people out there that will get in your face and stay there, letting everyone know what your up to.
At 23 you don't want that on your record so try and work on changing it.