Am i a pedophile

hey, so basically im a 19 year old girl, very normal i have good social skills, wonderful boyfriend whom im very much attracted to and love. i have never had any history of sexual abuse or anything like that. but a weird side of me like ALL penis's. i have like a fetish for a penis. just penis. like i only want to have sex with my boyfriend and boys my age, and i certainly have no fantasies to have sex with younger boys. i dont have obsessive thoughts about young boys at all. its just that if i see a young boy playing with himself in public i get a little turned on. ive never looked a child pornography or anything. but i have that weird fetish. i have no interest to touch boys or anything i just get a lil turned on if i see a young boy play with himself. and i do have a SEVERE case of OCD with is making me have obsessive thoughts that im a pedophile. ive never thought about being a pedophile before, my OCD just got much worse. does this mean i am a pedophile? does this mean i am a sick person? i really hope not...

I wouldn't worry, a penis is a penis, and little boys have much more attractive, smooth-looking penises than men. As long as you're not doing anything illegal, there's no problem, your OCD is probably contributing to your distress, but I don't think it's anything to worry about. To be honest, I think you'd have to be insane or lying to say a man's penis is better looking than a boy's, whether you're a pedophile or not. So no, you're not sick, and you're not a pedophile.