Sexual Insecurity..

Hello all,
I'm a 34 y/o male and ever since I was a teenager I've had this curiosity/arousal about gay "acts" that have really upset me. I've been a hetero all my life and my romantic and physical attractions have always been toward woman. This is very confusing to me to say the least! The gay thoughts have never included kissing or anything romantic as that just creeps me out. The men in these thoughts have been nameless and faceless because the thought of doing this with a "real" person or anyone I know is incredibly disturbing and disgusting to me. The thought of being in a relationship with a man also feels alien and unsettling to me, and I have never been turned on by a picture of a man, only by women. So why do I get aroused at these thoughts? I need to know if this is just some meaningless curiosity, or some deep down gay tendency. Please help someone....

Just a guess...

But it may be possible that you're not necessarily gay but just attracted to the taboo nature of the idea? Maybe you like the thrill?

Maybe thats it. I mean how could I be gay when I'm not attracted to men and I am attracted to women? It makes no sense.

I do believe that it has something to do with the taboo nature of it. Sometimes people are aroused by something they find extreme.

That does make sense. Thanks Havani and Neuling for your replies.