Looking for something

I am currently in the process of being divorced and I want to move on so I'm looking for someone to help me. For those who know me my paraphilia is bondage (without sex) and I'm looking for someone to help me. The only stipulations are you have to be female, of at least average looks and live no more than 4 hours from New hampshire. There would be compensation involved and we would have to build a little bit of a relationship first but it could be good for both of us. PM me or post if ou want to discuss it further.

Almost sounds like something from the personals. ^^ I think you might actually have better luck if you tried Yahoo! Personals or Match.com, (or searched on Google for personals).

Despite your seeming optimism, I'm sorry things ended badly for you and your wife. That must be difficult. I know it would be extremely difficult for me, almost unbearable. So are things finalized as far as your relationship is concerned? Do you mind if I ask?

I've tried the personals and not only is it expensive but those girls think it's funny and mysterious and only actually want to date someone not engage in what I want. People don't understand what it is that I want. That's why I'm here to gain understanding so I figured I would throw it out there and see what I could find. As for me and the wife, ya next to my son having heart surgery at a week old to correct defects this is easily the worst experience of my life, if it wasn't for my son I would have put a gun in my mouth a long time ago to get rid of these unrelenting urges. I hate mtself for having them and then giving in to them which ruined my marriage. No nothing is final we still have to file, we just wanted to wait until after the holidays. What a great ######6 Christmas gift. It reminds me of a great Kenny Chesney song "That's Why I'm Here" you should check it out.

To be honest that was my first though, perhaps the wording of it maybe...

That's a very cold Christmas. I can't help but put myself in your shoes and wonder if there still isn't anything, begging, sacrificing, or the chance of some sort of miracle, that might give the relationship another chance. There's a guy in my group who's getting divorced soon too except it's because his wife won't have patience with his pornography addiction. It seems he really has tried everything to kick the habit and revive his relationship, but she refuses to compromise. It leaves an absolutely horrible feeling to see the end of something so good that was meant to last forever especially when one side of the relationship is trying so hard. The devil laughs heartily at it all I'm sure. At least you have your son's love.

I read the lyrics to that song. I've heard it before I think, and it seems very appropriate.

She gave me a lot of chances and she can't take the chance it will happen again. That's why I'm looking here, maybe I can find someone with mutual interest that's also looking to make a couple of bucks. I hate to sink this low but regular avenues have not paid off. I hate myself for doing it too her and I have begged and tried sacrificing but it's too late for her. I hate myself and need help to find what it is I'm missing, and that's the freedom of my downfall.

Even if this chapter of your life is coming to a close, don't give up on yourself. People can change! My father-in-law was convicted last year of sexually abusing 2 of his daughters, (neither was my wife). His family would have been devastated further than it was by the sudden news from the oldest daughter, (then 20 years older than when she was abused), plus his full confession to everything, but he started working immediately to make things right. His wife and daughters' forgiveness, so long as he never regresses, saved their family, but he, himself has changed completely in the eyes of all who know him well. He still has the consequences to deal with, but he's dealing admirably well with everything, from being forced to stay temporarily with his mother-in-law to being a registered sex-offender. From the little I've seen over the holidays so far, he's kinder, humbler, and more patient. Right, his is a totally different situation, but I guess all I really I mean to say is that change is possible. My wife has noticed him much more cheerful and bright, like he's left behind his past finally. I want to work toward that myself, (minus the criminal activity), so that I can be free from my own downfall. I hope you find your way to happiness, whatever that might be, Paraphiliac.