On being different**TRIGGERING, GRAPHIC**

Hey and whats more theyre cheaper than American ones and speak English just fine!

because he will without doubt assess me as a danger to children.

I think that posting on this forum says one of two things about you:

a. you truly want help for this aberrant behavior or

b. you want affirmation for your behavior.

If "a" is correct, by seeking help through a psychologist, you are accepting your actions as abnormal. That is the first step in an recovery. If you are reported by a professional counselor, at least the fact that you were seeking help will be a plus on your side in the final assessment of your actions by the judicial system.

If you don't get help, you will continue with this behavior and when you are caught, the consequences will be even more severe.

If "b" is correct, you are truly misguided if not dillusional. There are too many survivors of sexual abuse on this site that have no compassion for those from the same ilk as those who caused some much pain to so many.

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devins wrote:Hey OP like you i've been raping kids for several years (10ish) and wanted to stop, wanted help... the paranoia was killing me. LUCKILY I was able to find a psychologist across the boarder from El paso that was taking American patients and let me tell you what is said there can truly be confidential. You can't just COME OUT and admit anything but if you imply it strongly they will help you work around the issues with a sort of mutual understanding.

Tougher than quitting smoking I can tell you that!

This post has been reported to missing and exploited children.

Thanks devin! I'm so glad you could offer me advise. I'd never would have thought someone would actually be able to help me with my problem. I really love this forum!

I'm not going to badger you - there is already plenty of hate in this forum because of your well-attracting confession.

Listen...

You admit you are a possible danger. If you have guilt and shame for your actions, shouldn't you take RESPONSIBILITY for your actions? That means you turn yourself in and find possible treatment. If you don't, you are neglecting your own dignity as a human being, and ultimately committing crimes and destroying the lives of others.

Step up and live a responsible life. You never CHOSE to be a pedophile, but you can PROTECT others from it.

he may not have directly chosen to be a pedophile, but I don't think it would be helpful to say he absolutely didn't choose to be a pedophile. That's going to take away responsibility. Maybe I just don't believe that all our actions are determined by genetics.

Choices in behavior= responsible decisions

Being exposed to a certain behaviour is not an excuse.

There is no reason to hurt a child. Paranoia is a good sign that hurting children is wrong. And if caught....what a snafu to be in.

Confession (if you're still around), as a man attracted to children I understand your fear of loosing everything you have. Your own treatment is not all that is at stake as long as you continue to live the way that you've described. The children that were abused or may be abused need help. If you refuse to believe that you can bring yourself to risk sacrificing it all for your own sake, could you maybe for that of the children and for the sake of other abusers who may have hurt your victims who need help? Your sacrifice could bring healing and reconciliation to all of these. What if you wrote a letter of confession and sent to to everybody involved and told them to seek help? Couldn't you move outside the country (Mexico?) and liquidate your assets prior to sending copies of the written confession and hide your identity while receiving counseling as devins suggested? It is the coward's way, to run, but at least you will keep your humanity. I believe you want to make things right in the end.

This is a bit off topic:
I'm curious what brings victims or survivors to threads like these. I've read some reasons such as being able to help pedophiles understand the consequences or in order to keep a look out for confessions. My question is really, not what reasons, but what emotional motivation is there behind explaining things to or arguing with "the other side?" I think it would only be draining or aggravating. There are many forums specifically for people who need or want support for victim recovery. All I can say is that I'm glad for the most part that those in recovery care enough to try and help.

Hey, S33EEZ! It makes me feel better to know that not all people would act on these thoughts and that you realise you'd be hurting someone. Sometimes I'm scared that I might end up like my abuser, and talking about this gives me hope.