Struggle

I struggle with feminine hygiene products, specifically pads. It's not the same struggle that internet search results return, rather it is a struggle that I want to end. For some reason, whenever the thought of my partner using them for their intended use, it's almost as if I have an anxiety attack. Whats strange, is the fact of not having this issue with people whom I am not in a relationship with. I almost feel threatened by this specific object. It's as if I think my partner is getting sexual gratification from it rather than me. The thought of feeling embarrassed if others knew she used them, especially guys makes me terrified. Yes, I used them in a sexual way before and now I can't seem to get the thought out of my head that they are not sexual for women. Any advice?

Hi, Brenden, and welcome.
Maybe you could just tell your partener about this, and be sure to let her know that it is important to you. She should treat it like a real problem, becouse that's what it is, if it bothers you. Be honest wiht her. I think there might be other reasons why ou feel threatened by these products. Maybe you are a bit insecure about the relationship and your partener's fidelity, or maybe it's becouse of another relationship that went bad, and this is how you are projecting your feelings.