Only just found this place

I came across some threads on this board, after seeking out information about the attractions I have. I must stress how nerve-wracking it is to search for information, because of the fear that somebody will misinterpret my searches for something more sinister. How does one find people who have the same desires, without getting sucked into shady groups that act on those desires in deplorable ways?

I should clarify. I am a 23 year old male. I've just discovered the terms hebephile/ephebephile, which I suppose is what I am. I experience attraction to women of all ages, and have a beautiful 21yo girlfriend who I love. But ever since I first developed sexually, I have had a particular disposition towards those in early puberty. I hoped to grow out of it or drive it out of my mind, but it had become undeniable. I am extremely attracted to girls age 11-15. I feel like a disgusting, horrible creep for even thinking it, and am absolutely terrified of saying it.

I would like to stress that I have never done or looked at (to my knowledge) anything illegal. The idea repulses me. I am very aware of the immorality of such a thing, which far outweighs my lust. But I have have repeated thoughts/fantasies, and I am worried that if I do not address this side of my sexuality, it will manifest in an unhealthy and scary way, and in ten, twenty, thirty years... I might fall off the wagon. I do not want that to happen.

And so, I found threads here. This is the first place I've ever seen where people like me are expressing their views and feelings, without judgement or instant condemnation. I could not have imagined such reasoned, mature conversations happening about what is understandably a very sensitive topic. I was also impressed by the level of support and self-awareness displayed by people. From what I read, nobody wants to do anything horrible, and will support others to make sure we all stay good. It's honestly a little touching.

But then I see the announcement at the top. This board will close, when I've only just found it and I think it could do me a lot of good. This saddens me greatly. I suppose I'm posting here mainly to ask if anyone knows of any replacement places? Any other forums for like-minded people, which encourage support and discourage illegal activity? Or failing that, is anybody willing to PM with me? It would be nice to have somebody to talk with. I couldn't imagine telling anyone in real life.

There's a new site starting dedicated to what this forum was.

http://paraphilias.16mb.com/