My Biastophilia

Lately, as in the past couple of months, I have been watching television crime shows. My favorites right now are Law and Order: SVU, and Criminal Minds. Don't worry, this won't turn into a favorite tv show post

In these shows they depict rape, in many forms, and murders (especially the latter in Criminal Minds). Lately I am becoming more and more sexually aroused at the rape scenes. When I was young I would become sexually aroused at anything involving sex, including rape. I was not worried because I was going through puberty and, as a boy, I assumed it was normal. I am a bit older now and I am becoming worried. Reason is my recent interest in watching television shows (using netflix) I can binge watch these types of shows ( SVU, Criminal Minds, etc..).

I am single so I masturbate. Lately these few months I am thinking more and more about the rape scenes. I visualize them, think about them, invent my own scenarios, act them out in my head. Now its to the point where its all I can masturbate to. I think about myself sexually assaulting people, usually using vast amounts of violence. I get aroused just thinking about it. Sometimes I even get aroused thinking about a "victim" post-sexually assault. The violence and murder aspect can get me aroused, but not as much as the sexual assault, so I don't think its a problem.

Right now its to the point where its all I think about. I can start my "sessions" with myself thinking about safe and normal sex, but it always turns into a sexual assault and or violence/murder fantasy. It used to just be few in number, but it slowly started clouding my thoughts to where I literally cannot think about anything else.

My question is: Does anyone else have these kinds of urges? Should I be concerned? Is this just a phase, or is it something that will turn into a permanent parahilia or fetish?

Any thoughts/comments or just about anything interesting on the subject would be appreciated.
Thanks.

I think therefore I am
violent thoughts produce violent actions and violent actions produce more violent thoughts
try not watching these shows and doing something and not masturbating for awhile and just think about something healthy
our do it the opposite way think about rape than think about something healthy but however you do it disengage yourself from the negative rape fantasies

-- Sun Oct 11, 2015 6:31 am --

I think therefore I am
violent thoughts produce violent actions and violent actions produce more violent thoughts
try not watching these shows and doing something and not masturbating for awhile and just think about something healthy
our do it the opposite way think about rape than think about something healthy but however you do it disengage yourself from the negative rape fantasies

I'm not really sure if it is just a phase. It might be temporary if you deal with whatever is causing these thoughts and urges and it seems like it is becoming more intense.

I must admit that I have had thoughts about rape several times in my life. It was more about sexual gratification than power but I'm sure that was involved somehow. I've always had confidence issues when it comes to romantic or sexual interests and because of that there has been some frustration. Rape may have been the more feasible way of getting that sexual gratification with a person but it was still totally unrealistic and I could never do that to a person.

How do you feel about sex and relationships? Have you had romantic relationships before? Sex? How confident are you with women? How good are you at relating to them? Do you masturbate or consume porn often? Are you sexually frustrated? Do you seek power or lack a sense of control or power in your life? If these thoughts are concerning you then looking at your own life, identifying any points of concern and dealing with them might be a possible solution.

Mustelidae wrote:How do you feel about sex and relationships? Have you had romantic relationships before? Sex? How confident are you with women?
I feel ok about relationships. I'm in a relationship right now, with my girlfriend. We have sex often, and I would say I'm pretty confident around them. All her friends say I'm pretty charismatic!

Do you masturbate or consume porn often?
I don't watch porn.

Are you sexually frustrated?
I don't think so.

Do you seek power or lack a sense of control or power in your life?
I move around a lot, low ranking in the military, but so are tons of other guys.

Mustelidae wrote:///

In my reply I'm talking about my previous girlfriend. Me and her broke up about a year ago. I don't think that's whats causing this, though.

I don't agree that violent thoughts lead to violent actions. You should feel safe and comfortable with your sexuality so long as you harm no one.

As long as you always understand the unethicality of sexual assault and that the suffering of real people displeases you on a conscious level, you should feel to indulge your fetish and within the safe confines of fantasy and not bottle it up inside of you. To bottle it up would be most dangerous I should think.

Maybe acquire some friends with benefits to act out your fantasies (with safe words